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William and I are a couple. I just checked my last post (sorry, with school, work, and William) its so hard to keep up!

Another side note, I told my boss about wanting surgery. He said if insurance doesn't cover it, the company will. Have you ever heard such a thing? I am so excited. Forward, I go!

I have been in a whirlwind! 

I have been seeing someone and I am so excited! They like me just the way I am. I confided in him that I want surgery and he supported that idea too! We have been taking long walks and just talking and holding hands. I feel like a new love. I am not IN LOVE with him, yet, but I LOVE the idea of having someone I can talk to and confide in. 

I am going to talk to my boss soon about what benefits are due me.
Wish me luck!

Time is slipping away from me. 

I cannot get ahold.

To remember what was gets harder to be. 

Faster, growing getting old.


I just made that up. I love to write poems. For some reason today, I am feeling achy and am relating it to being old. Its my poem, I can do that!
I also love to write about angels. Maybe someday I will share those. The angel poems are more personal. It is my pain/pleasure in life. Passion is a funny thing. Maybe I will explore both sides of passion. Pain and Pleasure. Hmmm... Good idea, Amy. Glad you thought of it.

I really think blogging is therapeutic for me. I love to write. I love to see the written word. I love LOVE today. Ok, so yesterday was not my crowning glory of a day, but I was determined to make today better and it was. I will be going for a manicure momentarily. A little pampering doesnt hurt!

I have an idea for a new childrens book. The basic idea (dont want anyone stealing it!) is a little boy lives in NY and cant get to the park and play because it is raining. He ends up falling asleep and has the most exciting dream. He can fly. So he flies all over NY looking for other children his age to play with. I am not sure about an ending yet. I like the idea of a fantasy type dream but I do not want it to seem too Wizard of Oz-ish! Oh well, time for my manicure. If you hang around my blog long enough, I may put a poem or two up!

I am so tired of being fat. I dont want anyone to know what I weigh. I am embarrassed to get on a scale, I dont even know if mine will go that high!?!
I see that many of you on this site get the surgery. Some are doing so well and have such a good outlook. I just want to be happy and find love. Not just friend love, but true love. I want kids, I want the house with the white picket fence and a puppy to boot. Is that so hard or wrong?
*sigh* I want someone to love me for who I am big or small.
Anyway, I guess this is feel sorry for me day. I usually have a positive attitude, but today is not one of them.