I am up to 163.  That's 8 lbs.  But...I have no one to blame but myself.  I had a rough 2 months back in May and June.  I totally gave up my exercise routine.  (Which, by the way, was quite admirable for me.  cardio 3 times a week, strength training 3 times a week, and walking 2 miles 5 days a week)  I have not tracked any food or exercised regularly all summer.  I tried so hard from January to April to loose one more pound that I simply lost sight of the big picture.  I tried everything everyone suggested and nothing worked.  I think 155 it for me.  I have come a long way.  But, I still dream of those last 30 lbs.  Now that September is here and school is back in session, I can establish a daily routine and get back into some better habits.  Goals for September:  

64 oz of water a day
all vitamins
50 - 60 grams of protein
control portions
6 small meals a day
no sweets
no bad carbs
exercise 3 days a week at the gym 
Weigh 158 by 9/30 and to loose 2 inches in my pudgy waist

Good Luck me!

Okay...I've taken 11 days off.  I've eaten what I wanted.  I had cake, pie, nutty bars, black tie tuxedo cheesecake, carbs carbs and more carbs, coke, wine, whatever I wanted I ate it.  I didn't really gorge.  I can't.  My stomach is too small.  Thank God.  I have not been on the tread mill since Christmas Day.  I don't really feel guilty.  I did not gain any weight.  But, I have really gotten off the protein track.  I'm still drinking my water.  I just really needed some time off.  It is so hard to get back on track.  But, I want to weigh 140 by June.  In the back of my mind, I feel like my body will weigh no less than 155.  So, I have possible already failed before I even try.  However, I am going to give it 6 more months of the best effort I have.  My goals:

Drink 64 oz of water each day.
Take all my vitamins.
Eat 50 - 60 grams of protein a day.
Eat 6 small meals a day.
Eat 20 or less grams of carbs per meal only if I can want them.
Stop grazing.
Aviod hard candy.
Walk/Run 2 miles a day 5 days a week.
Add in some other type of excercise 3 days a week.
Avoid all sweets and bad carbs until 1/31/09.
Weight 154 by 1/31/09.
Give it all I've got.
I can do this. 

I just hope my body will allow the last 22 lbs and I'm not sabotaging myself.

This is a new year and I need to finalize this weight loss chapter and move into maintenance at 140 lbs for life.

I love me and I will continue to love me and be my best self for 2010.

At last!  Weight loss again.  I was down to 159 on Monday.  Woo Hoo.  By Friday the scales had dropped to 157.  I think that is the most I have lost in a long time.  3 lbs in a week.  I think I am addicted to loosing weight.  I'm not happy unless the scales are dropping.  I guess I will have to reconcile that addiction too.  I can't stand the stalls.  I miserable the whole time.  I guess it's because I'm not at my goal yet and I would hate to stop loosing weight before I got to goal.  I've come to far to stop just shy of the finish line. 

I can't stand it.  I can't get below 160.  No matter what I do.  I'm eating more protein.  I've increased the intensity of my exercise.  I run and walk now.  I am so scared I will not loose anymore weight.  I read all the posts on OH about everyone wearing size 4's, 6's, smalls, and mediums.  I see how everyone looses 120 and 130 lbs.  I read how they lost steadily for a year or more.  I can't even get to 100 lbs.  97 is the closest most I've lost.  I am so envious.  I want this so badly for myself.  I am stressing too much.  I had my six months visit and my surgeon says to forget it.  He says I've accomplished my goals.  I no longer have health problems and I have lost 65% of my excess weight.  Don't focus on a number he says.  But, I weigh 160.  My BMI is 29.4 (finally made it to overweight...no longer obese...on a happy note).  I want to weigh 136 and have a normal BMI.  136 is the most I can weight at 5'2" and have a normal BMI of 24.9.  I am eating so much more now than I was several months ago.  It seem like so much more now.  Is this why I can't loose weight.  I am supposed to be eating 3/4 cup each time I eat.  I can actually eat a little more.  I have to eat 50 - 60 grams of protein now.  I have to get it all from food.  I would rather not eat.  It just makes me want to eat more.  I have started to have really bad head hunger now too.  I want to eat all the time, but I am never hungry.  I honestly think it is because I am so obsessed with loosing 20 more lbs.  I can't figure it out.  The surgeon and his nurse told me to just relax and see what the next 6 months brings.   But, I can't get this off my mind.  Why can't I loose?  Why are the scales stuck?  I want one of these 7 - 8 lb runs like I was getting several months ago.  I swear I am addicted to the high I get from loosing and I can't get it back.  I can't stop eating  because that will make me unhealthy.  I don't know what to do.  Everyone says excercise more.  I can't make myself.  Is exercise the only thing standing between me and my goal weight?  I just can't believe that.  2 miles in 30 minutes 5 times a week should be enough to keep me loosing.  What do I do and how do I do it?  I feel like I have done something wrong.  I feel like this my fault.  I even feel like I have failed.  I've come so far, but to stop 24 lbs short of my goal seems like such a tragedy to me.  It is just so unfair and I am so discuraged.