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Hello everyone; I dont feel good today. PCOS is killing me, little by little, is crazy its always been here with me. thats why I had so many problem with my weight and appearance... I have try every diet. and I also being anorexic, this episode in my life that I hate but was the only way I keep my weight down.... not knowing that all along it was PCOS and that with this came many other things including eating disorder. I never being this big... I'm so depress, I just want to be normal... I hate this, how come no one have a cure for this terrible disease... My husband being away is not really helping either. I just feel so down, so ugly, so non-woman. I used to write when I was a teenager. I wrote this when I was anorexic, I dont have the poem right now but it went something like this... "I was referring to my anorexia" The Monster It takes me, do everything it wants with me make me suffer, give me confidence, make me cry" Dont let me see any more colors, only black and white. I love it although I hate it its my sacrifice, it can also save me its my friend and my worse anemy I wish it does not exist and I wonder why God created such a thing I dont remeber the rest but when I get home I will look for it and posted... but this is the way I feel right now. the only difference its that my monster now is PCOS... 1 Comment(s)
Comment by jaleely on May 24, 2008 at 03:28pm
I haven't found anything i've related to more. (except for the save me part, and only if i think of it as the PCOS monster) *l* add how it takes away your control, and forces your feelings to lash out...and that's it!
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