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wow, so its 6 months! and i feel like a completely different person. I weigh in at 139, and i am smaller then i was in jr high! i feel so good about myself it is unreal! I am having small skin issues, but nothing to really complain about too much. My sex drive is non existant, maybe that will come back with time. hopefully!!!! But hey all that matters right now is how i feel about myself! and that is AMAZING!!!!!!!!

Hello all! it has been a great journey for me so far! and suprisingly easy. i have heard all the horror stories in the forum, but i personally havnt had any problems and i LOVE my RNY!!! i am weighing in at 155!!
so im down a total of 70 pounds all together and 50 since my surgery date. It feels good, i do still feel pretty big on some days, but i know its going to take a while for my fat girl to go away. lol. I am hoping to lose another 30 or so more pounds. i think with my frame i would look good at 120. But we will see when that time comes. I am currently stalling and have been for a couple weeks, but i weigh 155.... i havnt weight that since i was 15. LOL so im A ok with this stall. I am now patient... i just cant wait to go shopping. I dont want to buy anything quite yet.. just a couple shirts so far.. IN A SIZE MEDIUM! woohooo

ill update new 3 month pictures some time soon

Finally im done! i got there monday morning, and was so scared. i had to wait around for about 2 hours where they asked me a bunch of questions over and over, they hooked me up to the iv. i thought by the time i was going to see my surgeon that i would have a heart attack, but no, i met the anesth. and he had the worst lisp i had ever heard, so i was trying not to laugh, when he said " ok is time to Sssslep." lol But he was a really sweet guy. it just eased my fears. lol. i woke up in alot of pain, mostly nausea. The nurse was ignoring me, and i was in and out of sleep, begging him for my glasses because i couldnt see anything. lol. Him and the other nurse were talking about another patient, and i said who are you talking about me?? what happened wrong?! and he said, nobodys talking about you, relax, thats why you aint getting your glasses nosey!! lol. finally i was reglar awake and they brought me to my room. I was SoOOooOOO sick, i was burping and gagging on my burps. and dad and DH were looking so sad at me i told them to go home, and that to come back in the morning. lol. i really didnt use any pain meds, except a couple times, but it made me more sick, so i just dealt with the little pain i did have. I am so happy and excited that i finally did it. The hospital was stinky and noisy, but it was worth it!

I woke up at 4 am and never went back to sleep. i am crazy nervous and scared. but im doing this. because if i dont i will always regret it. a regret far larger then the sadness of missed food. I love this websight and all the people in it, because if it wasnt for all of you i would have never made it this far. i would have chickened out along time ago!

Woop Woop only 5 more days! I am so excited. also a whole lot nervous! I almost started to talk myself out of this whole thing, until last night, a few of our friends called, they were all going out. and i refused to go, because i didnt want anyone to see me. I feel so badly about myself that i am becoming like a hermit. And i look at other people with envy and wish i could look like them. Well i am so over the obsession of this weight. I want to look in the mirror and be happy with myself, and not worry that people are looking at me thinking eww shes super fat. i want to be healthy and not have to worry about always being on a diet. And im so glad that i decided to take action while i am this young, and before i got too big, or too sick! I Cant wait until monday.