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  • Username: WannkeChaBe
  • Location: Wenatchee, WA, USA
  • Member Since: 12/14/2007
  • BMI: 44.2
  • Hoping to have surgery
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stop existing and start living!!

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dance for my husband.

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shape this body I'm in to show the person I am.

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  • Computers & Internet - I play around on the computer way to much :D.
  • Family & Friends - I have a very small family, but they mean EVERYTHING to me.
  • Poetry - I actually have had 2 poems published (blush).
  • Crossword & Word Games - I do crosswords all the time. I play Scrabble online every night.
  • Movies - Horror movies are my favs...they must have a plot and story line though.
  • Music - My mood determines what I listen to, but it's mostly Top 40, Metal or Rap.
  • Native American - I am Seminole and am researching my heritage.
  • Yoga - I am so wanting to start Yoga...but need a really good beginner's instruction DV
  • Medical Transcriptionist - I have a certificate of completion from EvCC for Medical Transcription. Now I
  • Reading - I'm a Dean Koontz fan. I also enjoy Stephen King and authors along those lines.
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Ready to Fly
on January 11, 2008 3:24 pm
I became interested in Medical Transcription as a profession for a few reasons, the most compelling being the ability to work from home.

This appealed to me in a big way because I have agoraphobia, panic and anxiety attacks when out in public or in a situation that is out of my control. I do best when I have someone with me I can trust, and so far that burden has fallen on the shoulders of my mom Alice, younger brother Andrew and wonderful husband, JR.

I am extremely self-conscious when in public due to my weight and am constantly tugging at my clothing or holding myself in. I have to remind myself to breathe, that I will get through this. I'm sure I am not alone in this in the general sense, but when I am in this state, I am alone. 

I leave the house twice a month to do grocery shopping, pay bills and re-supply household goods. My brother is my companion on these trips and although he is a humongous help and takes my mind off my surroundings, he's 19 and has a life of his own.

I know that if I had this life-changing surgery...if I were blessed with this tool to finally take myself and my life back into my own hands, I would flourish!!

People would finally see me and not this body I have made into my prison/cocoon. I am a funny, smart, witty, intelligent person. I love my family with all I am and it doesn't seem to come through all these limitations I have.

I have continued to say I have forgiven the person who set this off in me, but have I really? Am I living the life Creator intended for me? Am I whole?

It's time to take control, put myself first, and fly. 

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My Story

I am a 31-year-old married female. I have no children, and that is due at least in part to my weight.

I believe my weight issues began shortly after my father passed away in 1997 (I was 11). Within a year of losing my father and best friend, I found out I was going to have a little brother, we were uprooted in the middle of the night and moved to Oregon, where we stayed for 3-5 months until we were rescued by my Uncle and Aunt and returned to Washington State. Soon after coming 'home' I was molested by 2 family members and raped by another.

At the time of our return from Oregon, I weighed 98 pounds. Almost immediately after moving into our own place, I was raped by a trusted family member.

I'm not too sure if it was the loss of my Dad or the rape and molestations, but I started putting on the weight.

I don't want to be 'skinny'. I am 5'8" and currently at 291 ( I cannot believe I am publicising that). I want, ideally, to be down to 140-145 and be healthy. I want to run and have fun and buy clothes and shoes like normal people.

I want to have an active and enjoyable sex-life with my husband, play and enjoy being outside in the summer, and be able to look at myself in the mirror naked, and not cry or feel disgusted.

I ultimately want to be free to be me, the REAL me inside instead of the 'me' dictated my weight.

 


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