ok, first Thanksgiving that I have to be careful.
Kinda wish it was over.

Hard month.  Almost down to size 8 comfortably, but still working on that.

Weight loss moving slower, exercise is helping, but wish it was going faster.  20 more pounds than meeting for tummy tuck, cannot wait.

I totally broke out last week from too much dairy, it was so embarrasing.  Too much cheese, and milk, my staples.  Face doing better, almost clear, don't know if anyone else has that issue.  Other than that, no issues, except I still get hungry, that is hard to fen off.

I donated all my old clothes this last week, so no going back now, first time I have ever done that, not having larger sizes in closet, so have no back up clothes, but I say this is for life and I won't go back, only smaller.

For all those out there with a small support system or none at all, just so you know we can support each other, I did not have a lot of support either, my spouse thought it was a joke at first, and didn't think I was serious, etc, etc.

Hope all is well with you all....

Happy T-Day!!

today is Nov 1, 2010, and I am down by 10 more pounds...I really slacked on the exercise, work was crazy, and a toddler in the house complies my excuses.

The holidays are so near, I want to finish this up and just get on with my life.

I feel way better, but since that last fill, it is kinda difficult. 

good side though, I can pretty much fit in a size 10-most times.  So, I am happy with that.

I find it really cool, to just go get a size and bring it home and guess what?  it fits?and not a plus size, I still am worried that it is not true sometimes.

anyways, I wish you all well........

here it is 9/23/10 and I am still going at it.
I hope to be at a place to get the ok to do the tummy tuck by end of November, I hope.

I weighed in today at 175 so I am happy about that, and had a fill in radiology that was really odd, and the belt got as tight as it is gonna get.

I have been going to the weight loss group my primary care doc has, and seeing him regularly and my surgeon and weigh myself way too much.

When I hit about 140, I want to check in to see about a tummy tuck-it is really needed now.  It is weird now, seeing how people are starting to notice and then "not" notice. 

I fit ok now into a 12 which I am glad about.  Next goal is a 10, never thought I would say that.  It use to be a 22, then 24 ..., but now it is kinda cool to buy the clothes and take them home and they actually fit.  And if not then I know it will happen soon.

I wish it were easier to get over the hunger though and really hope that this fill helps.  It has been a struggle with every pound lost.  My doc stated I had "head hunger" but the band was not too snug, when I took that dye stuff, it went right down pretty fast.

I guess part of it is in my head.  I just like eatting that is bad I guess.  But know I cant.
I do feel better though, without soda, and my favorite-breads.

It is wierd though, because so much of my married life, my weight was an issue and now it is going down and the opposite is happening, now my spouse's weight has spiked up over the last two years or so.  He is supportive but I think he cannot believe I am actually doing it.

that is it for now.

take care all...........and keep going.....never give up.   I came close to giving up so many times, but luckily did not, and hope not to.

It has been one month since I have seen my primary care physican, and when I went back today, they said I lost 17 pounds!
I am very happy!
Gotta say my primary doc, is very, very supportive.  He has a group I go to, and I am grateful for his support.
Wish I could celebrate this, with someone.  So, here I will.
I am happy and look forward to going to my surgeon's next month.

Well there it was almost a year gone by? and what had changed?  not too terribly much.  I couldn't bring mysefl to go back to the doctor, feeling ashamed and a failure with this band and regretting I got it in the first place wishing I got the bypass.
My primary care physician listens and cares, talked to me, really counseled me, I got into his group for weight loss and he actually gave me an aid to help with hunger, as those fills were not helping me.  This was only to give me "kick start" one time - to get it going again.  I went my surgeon's office and got another fill and I made an appt for another exactly 6 weeks later.  And started to quickly reeducate myself to make sure I am doing everything I need to do.  I thought this has got to work or I want a revision.  Well, needless to say, when I dragged my sorry but back to see the doc, I had gone "up" in weight, sad but true.  So, I am still trying to get where I was, and then going from there.  So, it has been about a month as of next week, and go back to see my primary care physician and will be happy to go now, as weight is coming off.  My issue is hunger and why I eat.  since the time I have seen him last month to now, I am happy to have about a 13 pound loss, wish it was more but at least my clothes are not tight and I know it can come off.

I read on the Realize band site that the average loss should be a 1 to 2 pound per week.  I am not sure what to think about that.

But anyway I am back and am glad I am on track.  I just think it is kinda hard to lose a "friend" (food).  That is what my doc, says our "friend", the food! lol.