Next week Friday I go to Utica for my 3 month check up.  I am a bit nervous.  I am supposed to see Dr. Fitzer this time instead of the Nurse Practiononer. I don't know which will be better.  I have this irrational fear of displeasing him just like I did with Dr. Dent.   The NP I could care less about.  I need to get on the scale in order to make sure my calorie/activity levels are good for weight loss.  Hate getting on the scale though.  It holds such power of praise versus condemnation.

Lorraine has her RNY tomorrow.  There was a notice yesterday on OH  about a woman's aunt who died in recovery after RNY yesterday.  Sure glad she wasn't home to see that.  She is nervous and teary enough as it is.

Was definitely stuck for a while.  Finally down 6 pounds and it feels good to be moving again.  Got to keep it up. Or down!!!!

Went to see DR. Steele today.  BP 142/90  Yipeee!  Weight down .5# but maybe with all the painting etc, I am building some muscle.  Will watch the food more carefully tho.
Right foot really hurts.  Kelly (chiro) says it's just a phase.  Hope it ends soon.  Think I need new shoes.
Girls and I are canning green beans.  They'll be yummy this winter.

Finally!!!  Went the chiropractor again today and after not being able to get a reading on their scale last week, this week I can.  I am down to 343!!! I started getting ready for surgery at 377 so I am down 34 pounds.  Yippeeeee!  I knew something was happening but the scale was showing no movement.  I had to take my NEW pants in two inches and went down a bra size, and had to move the drivers seat froward in the van TWICE!  Finally the scale is catching up with reality!  The HCTZ which I begged Dr. Graber to let me go back on, has taken all the fluid off and I feel much better.  He asked me to decrease it to every other day so I have done that.  We will re-evaluate at my next check up.

Took my dd shopping yesterday and didn't get exhausted.  Did nap after but TODAY I can hardly keep my eyes open.  I guess it's caught up to me.
My surgery buddies, Kelly and Christeen, have lost 25 and 30 pounds respectively in one month.  I am so proud of them.  I on the other hand, am toodling along.  I should be losing 5 pounds a week based on intake/output but I don't have a scale to measure and how accurate that would be anyway I don't know because I am retaining much fluid.  I just exchange fat for water.  I did get permission to go back on the HCTZ for a week and that is helping but I don't know if a week is long enough to get all this water off.  And then what's to stop it from coming right back on?   Well, I figure if I just keep on marking the calories and exercise, everything has to balance out at some point and show on the scale as well.
I have had to take in my new pair of dungarees and I am swimming in my night gown.  I had to move the seat forward in the van because I couldn't reach and I noticed my tummy wasn't touching the stearin wheel anymore.  So I go along by thse little things and ignore what the scale says.  I have no other way to approach this without losing my mind.