Feeling just blah today, maybe it was my flu shot i got on Tuesday.  My arm still hurts, now my neck and back... Mmmm  I went to work for about 4 hours today, i wasn't feeling it, so i left, i have a 12 hour day tomorrow, so I'll make some time and money.  Glad I finished washing clothes this morning.  Haven't felt very hungry today either.  Breakfast was a Oh Yeah protein shake, snack was about 3/4 cup fage yogurt.  At work i ate 1 1/2 ounces of chicken salad with 5 flip crackers.  Then i had 1 ounce a nuts a little later.  Then another snack of a baby bell light cheese.  Then i forced myself to eat my leftover breakfast wrap, with eggbeater and ham on a low carb high fiber wheat wrap.  Now i still need more protein, whew and i don't anything.  Guess I'll make a shake, it's already 9pm, i gotta do something soon.  I did drink 3 16oz bottles of water, then my oh yeah shake,that my be 16 oz so im good on liquids today though.  Maybe it's our hot humid weather thats messing me up!! I dont feel like doing anything at all!! Guess i'll go invent a protein shake!!

It's official, I weighed myself this morning... I do hate the scale and don't weigh very often.  Which probably stems from watching the scale go UP and not down.  I am 196.6 Maybe less tomorrow, I dumped again today on a chocolate EAS, I only had about a 1/3 of it, and it was curtains for me.... I barfed 5 times in the parking lot a work, then i went home sick.  I did manage to drink a alpine punch isopure and some water today, got some of my vitamins in.  I put myself back on clear fluids today after that episode this morning.  Had some chicken broth for dinner.  My husband is bringing me home another isopure tonight, I'm going to try to drink half of it, at least I'll get 60 g protein in from that.  Whew hope tomorrow is a better day.  Big sale at GNC I'm going to hot tomorrow, buy one get one 1/2 price I have to stock up on Oh Yeah shakes and bars, my total favorite.  If I have a Oh Yeah shake at 8:30 on my way to work, I am good until 12:30 sometimes 1:00 until I have a snack, and 32 grams of protein!! Also like the lean body chocolate, 25 grams there, and I scored those reduced at GNC for $1.90

Well, before i took my shower tonight, I was getting all my too big clothes out of the closet and making my pile for the clothing swap at my post op support group.  So, anyway i made my pile, and just for giggles, i pulled out a old pair of size 12 lands end jeans, and i was saying not gonna go up my legs, they did, okay not going over my hips, they did, okay well they surely are not going over my butt, and guess what! they did... so i was being extra daring, okay not going to zipper and button, AND THEY DID!! kinda snug, i had the muffin top going on, so i would not wear them out yet.  But they fit, they actually fit!! I started at a tight 18 just 4 1/2 months ago!!

Well, dont know what happened tonight, came home from work and wanted something effortless, so i made some philly meat, with peppers and onions.  I put it on a 1/2 peice of wheat thin bread,  I doctored it up with some arby sauce and horsey sauce, both of which i've eaten before.... two bites into my yummy dinner, the saliva came... then my pouch did a few turns, then here it came 3 times!!! Ewww it was gross, i didnt eat fast, it was just 3 small bites very well chewed.  Not sweet, i just dont get it!! Oh well, guess i'll be doing clear liquids tomorrow.  Thats what my nurse told me to do last time.  So i will start from scratch tomorrow.  Which sucks, i really love my oh yeah chocolate shakes for breakfast!!