Well, i decided to do this again, not really that i felt like i could eat more, but i was eating more often.  Not really junk..more nuts maybe more crackers, extra cheese stick, a few bites of candy at work. Then my co-worker quit smoking so she was always buying snacks!! (resist-resist)  Then i was snacking after 6pm...(bad girl) So i finnaly weighed myself, i felt "jiggly" OMG 149 WTH??? no way.  I refuse to get to 150.  So...i started the 5 day pouch test, i didnt really plan on it, so i made due with what i had here, protein powder, eas, slim fast.  My only exception is coffee, twice a day sugar free and with hood calorie countdown 2% milk.  I have been doing about 4 shakes a day, this morning i am 141.  I feel better now, but i think i will continue until i get to 139.  I have been drinking more water too.  This would be the perfect time to "pig out" too or rather go overboard, my one sister in law had a heart attack and died on the table, then they brought her back, thank God! my husband went the next day out of state to be with her, If anything got worse, i was going to leave fri or sat.  But she is stabilized has a good heart rate and blood pressure.....she had a catherization done and 2 stints in place....my husband was a nervous wreck and i was scared for her and for him and all their family prayers work! we've said a lot of them since monday.  Then my other sister in law who made it through colorectal cancer 2 years ago, was diagnosed with lung cancer....she is my age, she is set to have surgery soon, more radation, chemo...and a lot more prayers for her and her family too.  But it seems as if us "over eaters" our solution used to be food, but that cannot be my buddy now! I used to have xanax for situations like this but i'm out, sooooo.......ugh, i will make do, just hoping my family will be okay and have many many more years!! Just had to vent/blog! say prayers for my family please!! for Myra and Sheryl & family...THANKS!!!