I am in my second rotation for surgrey. The first time my family, lovingly, convinced me to do it myself and not go with surgery. Two years later, of course, I was right back at the classes getting back on course. That was the fall of 2007. This last year has been a long one but..... I have learned a lot about myself and about my desire to get my life back. I have had struggles with food plans and pateaus with my weight. No matter how "good" I was eating and following the "program" to the letter... the pounds were stuck on me! I was so frustrated!!!!!! But..... I had to keep going.
I learned to keep my counceling appointments! Then I made some major breakthroughs with what I was eating over. Because I had gone to counceling and kept up with that... I was able to get through the really tough times when I lost my Grandpa Frost in April, my Auntie Janet in July and my Father-in-Law Howard in September. It was a lot of loss, and sadness but, I had my counceling that helped me to learn it was okay to cry and let others see me cry..... and there was a great healing with family members that lifted a 20 year weight off me. I admitted that I was to blame for several issues we had and I wanted our relationship to be good so much that I tried to be perfect. In trying to be perfect though I was messing everything up. So........
We have moved on now and we are very happy! When I went for my counceling appointment at the Weight Center I had lost 6 pounds since March. Now that may not seem like much but to me it was 6,000,000,000! I was so excited! I had achieved a break in the plateau and I was on the way down! AND she said that she would send in the readiness letter and I would be hearnig from the surgeon in about 3 weeks!!!!!! YAHOO!!!!!
I am sooooo ready for more life! Less sitting and more moving! Weight loss means soon I can have my knees replaced and that means I can walk! without pain and stand without loosing my breath from pain. I can go shopping with my friends at the mall, and actually go in the stores and get clothes!!!! There are some special shops I can't wait to go in!!!!
So here we go! I am on the cusp on something wonderful!