i can finally see the light at the end of the woods...it feels sooooo goood to be able to eat food!!! oh food how ive longed for you so...

im pretty much eating solids but taking it slow. im also introducing diary back in my diet to see if im still having lactose issues. all good so far. i vomited once last nite but it couldve been any number of reasons like it was midnight when i ate, it was pretty greasy, i ate little bit too fast, etc. so ill take that with a grain of salt.

been kind of lazy the past few days with the exercising, but i think ill take one more day of down time then im hitting the gym. my mind is still a little blurry with the anesthesia 3 times last week.

but all in all i think im on the other side of the mountain...

as a continuation to my last post...

i had the next endoscopy on wednesday morning, but before going in my surgeon says well i dont know if well be able to enlarge it because its a tight stricture but were going to try. if we cant then ill have to do surgery oh noooooooooo please not that!!! so we went in and they were able to dilate the hole most of the way. my surgeon later told me i have a big ulcer which ties into all the acid problems i had week one after eating my broth with hot sauce...ughhh. the ulcer is what pushed the hole closed because its sitting right next to the hole. if id said i was having chest pains for having the not-eating issues he wouldve know right away what was wrong but i went right from the acid reflux complaints to not being able to keep food down so he didnt think it was a stricture....just that i could tolerate foods.

anyway theyll need to go in again on friday and dilate the hole more plus make sure what they did wednesday is staying open. then i can go home and eat purees this weekend. if it closes some then i might have to have surgery still to remove the scar tissue. im praying thats not the case. my surgeon did say that until the ulcer is healed (4-6 weeks) the stricture might happen again. well hopefully it wont before or during my vacation in 3 weeks....ugh!!

i did do 3 miles yesterday and im attempting 3.25miles today...hopefully ill like what i see on the scale when i get back home and the IV fluids ware off. getting ready for florida baby!!

well it been a crazy few days...its starts with i was fed up with not being able to eat after reading how people are eating pizza and wings at week 4. here i am at week 4 and im still eating baby foods and i shouldve been on solids by now.

so theres a OH poster that actually lived in my complex and she had surgery 2 years ago. so i met with her for coffee at DD on saturday to voice my frustrations. she too agrees with other posters that it sounds like i have a stricture. now ive been fighting with my doctor about this the past couple weeks and he disagreed with the diagnosis. he still thinks it was going to just take time for me to be able to tolerate foods...it sometimes happens with people.

well my OH neighbor suggested i go to the ER and say im not getting in liquids either and theyll have to keep me for at dehydration, and while there i need to say i need an endoscopy for a stricture. i didnt feel comfortable with that in the beginning because i was able to get down liquids and i hated to lie about it. so i decided to go to the ER on sunday after after i dropped my kids off at the train station for their trip to michigan., since the hospital is across the street from the station. however ironically i was vomiting my isopure and protein shake that i had earlier that morning before i left the house so it wasnt really a lie at that point. also strategically my doctor comes back from vacation the next day and that way he would have to focus on me right away if im in the ER and then do whats necessary to find out whats wrong instead me going to his office and he giving me the run around for another week or two until hes caught up with work.

so anyway i get to the er and they started the IV. i also had to drink contrast for a cat scan but the nurse told me i had to drink 32oz in order to be taken down for the catscan...was she out of her mind? did she realize i had a baby stomach and it would take me all day to drink 32oz? wth?!?! so after 4 hours of finally getting through the first 16oz bottle (i fell asleep at some point) i went to raise hell but lucky the nurse changed shifts and i had a new nurse. i told him the situation and he says "i dont know why she gave you all that to drink....i could just give you a shot of contrast in a little dosage cup with a water chaser." wth?!??! heck yes ill do that! later i did the catscan and the ER doc says oh you have no obstruction. so im like dude i have a stricture and it doesnt show up on the catscan. so he calls my doc and my doc gives me a choice to come to the office the next morning, monday, or stay over nite and he and a GI will come see me in the morning. well as i said im avoiding the office visit so i said ill stay. im ready to handcuff myself to the door and do a sit-in!!!

so i get admitted and my surgeon comes in mid day and said he thinks a ulcer, because i had started having stomach pains after drink tea that morning, but it could of been from the contrast that was giving me the runs all nite. he still says no he doesnt think its a stricture. then the hospital GI comes in and asks a bunch of questions and said it sounds like a stricture like I said! ughhh…then my GI comes in and says he doesn’t think it’s a stricture either. but lo and behold it was a tight stricture after having the endoscopy on tuesday.  my GI didn’t want to expand it without my surgeon being there so i had the endoscopy again today so they can open the scar tissue. however my doc says if they cant hell have to do surgery to remove it…ouch. turns out they were able to open it up, but as a precautious they want to check again on friday to make sure its staying open…if so i can go home saturday and start eating pureed foods…yay!!! if not then its surgery again…noooo!!! also i have to starve until thursday which sucks considering i haven’t eaten (broth and tea) since monday. im going to be seriously skinny after this week once the IVs wear off  lol.

 

by the way…ive been walking at the hospital as they have a corridor circle floor with signs on the wall that say how many laps to do to get a ¼, ½ and 1 mile. so tuesday i did 2.75 miles, half in the morning and half in the evening since i cant eat lol…today i did 1.5 miles and plan to do another 1.5 mils later after the anesthesia wears off. i might as well not let my muscles get too weak however i haven’t had protein since sunday so i don’t know how thats going to work out. its worth a try to stay active though i guess…

still eating baby food...ughhhhhh

ok so apparently my flammation has not subsided at all...still throwing food up. i talked to my nutritionist and we figured out i can intake baby food but nothing else so i can only do baby food consistency which must be different from the pureed food...who would of thought? so i think ill stick to baby food this week and then next week ill start doing pureed but try to make it baby food consistency...seems hard to do. when will my tummy heal? its so frustrating! i should be eating solids starting today! ughhhhhhhhhh

well at least i started exercising yesterday...the treadmill for 45 mins/1.5 miles/225 cal then today i pushed myself to 60 mins/2 miles/300 cal...yay!!! and im starting to los weight again...im 3lbs shy of the my 20lb mark post-op...yay!! but i just dont feel like im getting smaller yet...i think once i get the food issue together ill really be happy though! maybe thats what has me a little depressed...

and today is day 2 at work...omg forget about it! i just cant get the food, proteins and water in and what makes it bad im only doing half days this week...ugh. its just so hectic at work that i cant focus on sipping all day...its really rough. and on thursday i have to travel to nyc for a meeting im running for 3-1/2 hours and i have to catch the train before 7am. thats going to be interesting...but i got to get better at this. ughhhhhhhhhhh...