Four years - wow! Been mostly good, with some rough spots, but I have no regrets.

Well, maybe one.

I have to pay for my own health insurance and Blue Cross is sucking me dry. If I had stayed at 400-plus pounds, I could have gone for disability and by now I would have Medicare. At my age, finding full time employment is almost impossible, since nobody wants to hire "old" - and nobody wants to pay benefits to anybody. Soon I will living out of a shopping cart under a bridge somewhere - stop by and say hi. But, I can actually walk to and from that bridge, and should the day come that I walk onto to it to jump off, I will be able to do that, too.  Only, I have lots of loose skin and I do tend to float!!

Just goes to show you that nothing is ever perfect.

But come what my, I am so happy  I had the surgery.  This life is waaaay better.

I had the surgery. Lost 200 lbs altogether. It was great.

Now I'm stabilized, but still obese. I can't remember what the old weight was like, and feel enormous now.

And I cannot find a pair of pants that fit properly! Most of y weight was in my hips and thghs, so my body is distorted now and I feel bad about it. Silly, I know.

I need some rehab asap.