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Today I'm at 7 weeks post op....the time is flying by...I just got home from Cancun.

The trip was fun...and I came back having lost 6 1/2 pounds....that's definitely great! But it was very hard to find food to eat, and worse to find food that was enjoyable. Mostly I ate yogurt and soup, every day. Luckily I had brought protein shakes and peanut butter with me, so I had that also.

I am finding that liquids are the only thing that still feels good in my tummy. I hope I can eat more food variety and thicker consistency soon. It was a bit of a realization while on vacation how everything looked so good and smelled so good, but that I couldn't ever eat a lot of food or whatever I wanted to indulge in again. I mean, I knew that at home, but on vacation it FELT different, and a little depressing...I guess, I was bound to feel the consequences emotionally at some point...Plus I can't really drink, everyone was doing tequila shots and other shots, and there is no way I can down a shot anymore....So being at an all inclusive resort with all the eating and drinking was a little weird for me. All the waiters and bartenders kept wondering what was wrong since I barely ever ate and never drank with my meal.

I still don't regret my decision....I think that as long as I lose all the weight and stay off the medications, I will never regret the surgery. I can do so much more physically...I didn't get tired, I was able to walk long distances, swim and snorkel, shop, sightsee, dance, watch concerts and shows, and stay up from early in the morning till the next morning.

Well...I guess it has happened....these last few days, I go up a pound, down a pound, up a pound, down a pound....I can't seem to get anywhere...I haven't been able to update my ticker, which is sad....

Now tomorrow I leave for Cancun for a week, so I won't get to weigh, maybe that is a good thing....since it really is annoying seeing the same numbers...in fact, I'm still up .8 of a pound from my last update...

Logically, I know this is not a real gain of fat....it wouldn't make sense...I'm not eating enough calories to make a gain..I'm exercising with the trainer and I'm still eating mostly protein shakes....

For those curious, I'm about 5 1/2  weeks post op...Lost about 30 lbs post op and about 30 pounds pre-op. I'm in a normal Large top and size 14 pants, sometimes 16's.

The food cravings are kind of back now...not terrible, but I do have the desire for food again....the desire to actually eat stuff that is tasty and junk food is appealing again...I'm definitely wanting things other than shakes, the problem is...I can't really get much protein in without them. I also find it frustrating to not know what to eat...to know if it is safe or not for my stage or if it will go down nicely or not....

I've not thrown up, thankfully...and no foamies...but I'm still always scared of it...I have had an uncomfortable feeling sometimes in my stomach and sometimes in my chest, and I don't like it. I think it is stuff that is too thick, it just sits like a heavy rock. I don't think it is from eating too much, since I still only eat about 3 ounces of anything at a time.

So I had to buy a new swimsuit since the ones I owned were too big now...that's the only good part of this story...
Last night, I must have tried on 50 or more swimsuits, no exaggeration...and this was not my first trip out looking, it was my third!

How is it that all my confidence I've gained over the last few months went out the window...I mean, I feel great in my clothes now...even sexy sometimes...but these swimsuits are horrible...when I was larger I just wore the skirted dress types and was done with it...but after losing nearly 60 pounds I wanted more...I wanted something more youthful, something reflecting my progress so far....I wanted to look as good as I feel....

I tried just about every Miraclesuit or other brand Shaping bathing suit...tried one pieces, tankinis, two pieces, skirted, non-skirted....nothing looked good to me...if it sucked it the stomach, it made the thighs look bigger...if it held up the boobs nicely, it made the stomach look poochy...ugh!

Not to mention that those shaper ones are like torture devices...I had more scratches all over my chest from just trying to pull them up and into place! So I said....forget it! I'm not going to wear something that is extremely difficult to put on dry...just imagine how it will be wet from swimming!

So I bought a two piece, no miracle anything, size 12...just plain old me....lumps and bumps and all....now it is super comfy, has a tiny bit of skirt to it, but not frumpy, it's fun and bright colored.... and I guess I don't look awful...but boy oh boy...I wish to be at goal now for summer time and swimsuits...next year for sure...

So I'm one month post op...where did the time go??

I feel great....the incisions look really good...I think only one will be noticeable above the stomach long term..and the one inside my belly button is noticeable but hidden.

I think I may be losing hair...not really sure...but I've been using Nioxin shampoo and conditioner, just in case. I'm also trying to remember to take the Biotin, but I haven't been.

I'm down 28 pounds in 28 days!!! I am wearing normal sized clothes from Old Navy & Target....Large T-shirts & XL shorts.

I'm averaging about 600 calories a day....some days are harder than others to get my food in....and my protein hasn't been perfect...about 30-50 grams a day, with a few at the magic number of 60. I can drink fluids much easier now....almost gulps really. Luckily, no throwing up, no foamies, no real discomfort...But I measure everything...and typically do not eat more than 4 oz of anything...the only exception is protien shakes, I'm up to 5 oz sometimes.

I have loads more energy...I actually feel light. I can move easily, it is awesome! This also makes sex incredible, which the frequency has greatly increased.

As far as exercise goes...I'm getting about 10,000 steps a day, walking everywhere....I haven't gotten back to my gym routines yet...but next week I start back with my trainer....I'm ready for her to really whip me into shape...

I'm very thrilled I went ahead and got the sleeve....I feel that this time is truly different and I'm loving giving away all these "fat" clothes knowing I don't need to hold on to them like in the past...(when I knew I'd eventually gain the weight back)...

I'm loving life right now.....