Unreasonable Expectations?

Apr 09, 2013

I decided right from the beginning that I was going to take one series of photographs a month to track my progress, so that I could see how far I've come. 

I had surgery on March 8th and I took my one month photos yesterday.  I've lost fifty pounds since starting OptiFast and thirty-two of those since surgery.  I know this.  I can see the scale.  I think on anyone else it would be a huge difference.  But the photos only served to show me how far I have to go.  I see no difference in the two sets of pictures and I'm disappointed in myself and my progress.  Fifty pounds on me is just a drop in a bucket.  

I had a different picture of myself in my head, where those fifty pounds were substantial and noticeable and to see the actual physical proof is disheartening.  I feel silly now, being worried about going back to work and everybody noticing my "extreme" weightloss and asking about it. 

However, I will pick myself up and carry on.  I will lose another fifty, and then another fifty after that, and another after that.  There will be a difference.  There will be success.  There will be more disappointments.  There will be more photos.

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