Things are both good and bad.  Im still losing though much slower since I am having so much trouble moving around.  Today I finally achieved one of those goals "if only, if only" I am under 250 pounds for the first time in close to 20 years.  My back problems have prevented me from exercising much.  I also found out something that may be even more amazing, which I have not posted about.  Today I weigh less than my younger brother for the first time ever in our collective lives.  I dont even know what to think....I am stunned.  Happy but I really never believed I would get there. 
Today I weighed 248 pounds.
I am fixing to start the prceedure to apply for permanent disability.  This is something I have been dreading and avoiding thiinking about, but today its 1 year since the  first day I missed work.  Maybe I should have done it sooner, but I just didn't want to give up hope, I still don't.   I am very depressed about this, I thought losing the weight was going to fix everything but it hasn't.  I dont know what to do.

Well at last i am at under 100 pounds to my goal of 180 pounds.  very extiting stuff i havent weighed this little since highschool.. and im feeling like a giddy teenager too... met a new guy Blake and omg he is cute, and a wonderful kisser... havent done anything more with him yet but im seriously thinking about it! LOL

Today is the day ive been waiting so long, im just so happy i might break into song!!! LOL
Every day is better than the last.
I can stand up for long periods of time, i am even starting to be able to drive more for the first time in months.  I hope this means there really will be a permanent improvement in my back situation.

Well survived the RYD conference, met lots of wonderful people, gathered alot of hugs! had alot more fun than I had even hoped for, learned alot too.  Even though I ate some questionable amounts of fruit and some nacho chips I still lost 1 pound at the conference.   Thanks to all the great speakers and to the RYD team for setting it up and making it a reality for us all. 

This morning I lost an additional 3 pounds putting me at 310, which is 125 pounds down, and within 3 pounds of my halfway to goal point...I am feeling better most days, I was able to survive the trip to dallas and back though it was pretty painful, I used my medications and managed it most of the time.  I did not complain about my pain...