Lose 10% to get Surgery Date!

I feel like lately I have been a little off the wagon. Have I been eating hamburgers, fries, cake? No. But I feel as though I have been snacking way too much.

I am soooo scared my pouch is going to get stretched out. I have worked so hard and come so far, I never want to go back to where I was... and I know that getting back there is not unrealistic.

I've never been good at journaling my food intake and counting calories. When I've had successful weight loss in the past, it has always been just watching what I eat, potion control and mondful eating. I feel like I need to count my calories now.

I have not gained any weight... infact I lost 1 pound this week, but I've been kinda stuck for a couple weeks. I don't want this weight loss to end so prematurely. I'm 6 and 1/2 months out. I would still like to lose about 30 more pounds and I don't want to forget that just because I am comfortable where I am at.

1. I am only going to eat when I am hungry.
2. Protiens first!!!
3. 4 bottles of water a day no matter what!
4. Start tracking my intake, daily.

I think that's a good start. Maybe I will kick start some more weight loss and get this last 30 lbs off!

Wow, so I am finally giving a little update. 

I have been feeling pretty good lately. Confident. I love it. I am flabby, but that's okay. I am in Onederland, and this is a lovely place to be!

I have 42 more pounds to lose to my pre-plastics goal. My surgeon never really gave me a goal, so I came up with one on my own. I am 5'5.5" and I set it for 155lbs. I hope this is not too high. I have no clue, but I think I will feel excellent there. Then after plastics, that should put me in the high 140's. 

I am really excited to have a tummy tuck. I know I am still about a year out from having it, but I feel like this will be the final step... the cherry. I really wish I could get my inner thighs done too, but beggers MUST BE choosers! lol. So... I chose the tummy and the boobs. I guess I will have to learn to love my thighs. 

As far as my bypass goes, I have been doing great. I can eat without any problems. I notice I can eat more of a variety... this is good and bad. It really still is about making the right choices. This is something I struggle with daily, but seeing the scale go down.. even if it is slowly... keeps me motivated. 

I hope everyone is good. xoxo

Two weeks ago I had a sugery that will forever change my life. In order to improve my quality of life and as a preventative caution, I had the Gastric Bypass. It was a very difficult decision to make, actually two years of thought went into this. Once my mind was made up though, there was no turning back. God gave me the confidence, the assurance and the peace of mind. I know that this decision was the right one for me.

My surgery went well. I walked into the operating room, laid down on the operating table, was strapped down and watch the anesthesiologist put the sleepy medicine into my IV and next thing I knew, I was wakiing up in recovery. (Thank you God!) My first thought... "What the hell did I just do?" I was in pain and felt pressure on my chest. The next 4 hours are mostly a blur to me. I remember getting an EKG, and getting shot up with pain meds every half hour or so. I remember I kept thinking "I want my husband! Where's my husband?" (who, by the way, was WAY more nervous about this than I was).

So after 4 hours or so, I was rolled to my own private room, YAY! I felt pretty good. By 6 pm, I was up and walking. I think the only things that were a problem the first day or so was that I was extremely nauseated and my blood sugar shot up and I had to have a shot of insulin. Other than that, all was well.

This last two weeks has been great. Not a problem, feeling and eating well.... very small portions of course, but I feel great. One thing I would like to say though... and if you have had the Gastric Bypass, you have heard this before, but this surgery is NOT brain surgery. I still have so many negative thoughts in my head. "I can't do this... I am not going to be successful, I am not going to get down to a healthy weight..." I think this surgery really does f*ck with your head. I know that it is the years of unsuccessful weight loss that put those thoughts into my head. I know that I can and WILL be successful, but every day I struggle with the negative thoughts in m head.

So! Now for some positive stuff! Before surgery I had a total weight loss of 35 lbs!!! Since surgery... two weeks ago, I have lost an additional 12 lbs! Grand Total = 47lbs!!! YAHOO!!!!!!!!

Well tomorrow is the BIG day! I am really excited. I slept fine until about 4:45am this morning, then I opened my eyes, started thinking about all I have to do today and couldn't sleep anymore. I am sure tonight will be even worse. Oh well, I will sleep eventually!

So today I  am just preparing. I have to finish cleaning, pack my bags and then start drinking that yummy solution that cleans your colon out. NOT looking forward to that. 

I'll post again by the end of the week to describe my experience!!! YAY!

In the mean time I have hit my 10% goal weight and then some, had my psyciatric evaluation, and gotten a surgery date! YAY! My surgery is scheduled for Feb 12th, 2008 at Kaiser in Fremont with Dr. Chu! I am so excited. I go for my pre-op on Feb. 1st. 

More to come!!!