Since the surgery I have been dealing with diarrheah and nausea.  Tough to get food down when you know that that is the result.  So at my one month post-op Dr. Hariah ordered an EDG.  Come to find out I have a marginal ulcer??  I will get details on the 21st.  I am trying to stay positive so I am not going to worry about stuff until I know there is something to worry about.  Getting the dehydration under control is key right now.  If I dont' do that I can't work.  I simply am too tired.

I am afraid to eat anything right now.  It is tough to try a new food daily knowing the results could ruin the rest of your day and some tomorrow.  Enough with the self-pity!!  All the clothes in my closet are too big.  I don't feel embarassed when people look at me.  I need to keep my eyes on the prize!  Remember why I did this and be thankful for how far I have come already.

Ok... it's been awhile.  I had my surgery rev. gastroplasty to RNY April 1, 2008.  Everything went well.  Recovery is rough.  Each day is better.  After going though everything  so far I am still glad I did it. 

Finally, I have approval from Aetna for a revision for a mechanical breakdown.  The test results from the upper gi tests are back.  My stomach is healthy with the exception of some minor heartburn issues.  I was scared it might not be due to all of the ibuprophen I have to take for my back pain.  Some of the staples came out from the previous surgery but some of them were still there.  Not enough to keep the food passing through though.  I have been really scared 'cause I know it is going to be hard and painful but in the end I will be happy that I did it.  I am excited and I want it to be here now!