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being a victim of incest, I used food as a comfort, the more I ate the better i would feel it was my savior. I would hide food in a shoe box under my bed. I weighed 215 pounds when i was in the 7th grade and when i got out of school i weighed 330 pounds. I was sexual abused from a young age until i moved out of my house at the age of 17 and married  a man that beat me every chance he had, so once again i turned to food to protect me, make me feel better. By the time i married my 3rd husband I was over 400 pounds.

Mike didnt care, he loved me, all of me. so we got married and tried to have kids but i was told i would never have children because of the scare tissue from me being raped over and over by my dad and grandfather.

I decided that i needed to do something, Mike treated me like a queen, never abused me but my weight was ballooning out of control. So in 1993 I went to a gastric bypass doctor in Gainsville Florida. Dr Mcgregor told me that I was a good candidate for the gastric bypass and on my 30th birthday (July 15th) I had gastric bypass at North Florida regional.

From july until February 1994 I had lost 85 pounds and found out I was 2 months pregnant. We was so thrilled and excited. I went to specialist while I carried our son until he was born in December. I had lost 50 pounds while pregnant with him but he was 7 lbs 13 oz and healthy. after he was born i had lost another 70 pounds when i got pregnant with our daughter that following September 1995. during my pregnancy with Her, i had to eat all the time and started to put a little weight back on, but lost 30 pounds after she was born. Then the weight slowed down and I only lost maybe 2 pounds a month. Then the following september 1997 I was pregnant again with our third child. I didnt gain a bunch of weight with her but didnt lose it after I had her, then i noticed I was gaining weight back and She was born in July 1998 and in 2000 I had a partial hysterectomy, well hello, here came the weight gain. I went from 195 pounds to 385 pounds in February 2006. i had gastric bypass revision in february and as of today have lost 60 pounds. It is coming off, but very slow. I need to exercise more, but I dont like crowds and i wont go to a place where people can stare at me, but yet my husband got me a gym membership at golds gym. I went a few times and they was great, but now i have no will power to continue.I think I need a good swift kick to the butt to get me motivated. well this is my story, I no longer have contact with my father (8 years now) and my grandfather died a few years ago. i no longer eat to comfort myself and i am trying to get out of the house more and around people but somedays its hard. I am afraid they are making fun of me. guess thats the next step I need to work on.