in the last 24 hours I have recieved 4 compliments. None of which I feel I can accept..
whe i was bigger, i would go fishing for compliments, I LOVED them! now, my confidence sores yet I feel like I dont deserve even the slightest words of congradulation....
1st was from my personal trainer, he said that he has seen more improvement in the 3 weeks that I havce been there than he has seen in some clients make in the entire 8 weeks sessions.
2nd my taekwondo instructer said he thought that my kicks were some of the most powerful he has ever seen...impressive due to the fact I havent even tried to earn my white belt (the first one by the way)
3rd was from an old friend, he was impressed with my weightloss, his wife had WLS in January and he was still impressed with my improvements...
the final was from a manager going over the bake (I am a baker and we havew to go over my product) he said my bake was only second to one and he hoped that I was going to stay around for a while, the other baker quit 3 weeks ago and they ahvent seen a bake this good since (my boss and 3 other supervisors have baked there since hehe)
yet I cant seem to internalize them. I say thank you and mentally point out my flaws, the things these people seem to have missed... when will I be able to hear what they say, feel just as peoud that I have acomplishments beyond the scale? which HAS NOT budged in a few months! I lose and gain the same 10lbs :( that is a whole different blog... I hate platues!