Why? Why? Why?

Feb 22, 2018

 Why do I keep doing it? Why do I keep sabotaging my heath? My weight loss, my life? How did I stay so disciplined and mindful when I started this journey and now I can’t seem to go a full day without feeling guilt, anger, embarrassment, disappointment, frustration, etc? How do I start over and start heading back down the right path before it’s too late? I’m so quick to judge others mistakes on this journey but look at me, I’m by far no better. 

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Feb 22, 2018

Feb 22, 2018



It’s 7:00 am and I’m on my 2nd cup of coffee and I’ve already done my 20 minutes of exercise. To make it a little easier and less tedious, I did 5 minutes on the gazelle, 5 on the elliptical then repeated each to get my 20 minutes. We also took the tv off the wall in our bedroom and mounted it to the wall in front of the exercise equipment which is a nice addition. I can watch the news while I exercise and it goes by quicker. I’ve never been a big exerciser, I’m just lazy, lol. I do though, walk to work each morning when the weather gets better. It’s just over a mile but it’s s nice walk and start to the day.
I’m trying something a little different today with my slimfast shake. I put a teaspoon of chia seeds in it. Something different to see if it’ll help me to feel a little fuller longer. Had my 2 year Surgery follow up the day before yesterday and she suggested adding some chia and/ or flax seeds to my food. I already put chia seeds in my yogurt so I put some flax seeds in too. We’ll see.

Well it’s 8:00 no and I had a pretty good day up until about 10 minutes ago when I caved into temptation once again. It wasn’t horrible but it’s nothing that I needed to have, and now regret having it. I had a good day, got my exercise in early, got all my water in, had my yogurt, granola and fruit for my evening snack and then remembered that we have ghiradelli dark chocolate chips left from our fruit the other day and grabbed a small handful of them with some walnuts. I know it’s nothing horrible and it could’ve been worse but it’s still something that I did not need to have and should have been able to control myself and not take any. I guess I’m only human but it’s not the new life style that I chose to have after having surgery so I guess it’s still something I need to work on every day.

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Feb 21, 2018

Feb 21, 2018

I’ve missed a few days of my blogging. It’s been a good couple and rough couple of days. I have been exercising a lot more which I am really proud of myself. Our elliptical machine came in Saturday and I’ve been using it every day, even before I go to workout in the morning. I have also been eating more too. Not the type of eating more that you get or should be doing because you’re exercising and I haven’t been going too much over my calorie goal

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Feb 15, 2018

Feb 15, 2018

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Just finished my morning coffee and decided to use the gazelle again since I have the time. Shake is made, lunch is packed, hair fixed and I’m dressed so why not get it in now. Did 12 minutes this morning instead of 10 too. Feels good to be in the green on MFP first thing in the morning instead of red.
Just finished my lunch and I’m still in the green. Yay! I’ve been trying to get up and walk around the floor every 20 min-1/2 hour or I take the long way to the bathroom and printer. Suppose to go for a little walk before dinner today with Amber too since it’s nice out today. Then we’ll go home, have our cheese steak stuffed peppers for dinner and have a few of the chocolate dipped fruit we made while we all watch a movie. I’ll try to post a pic of our fruits we made. They aren’t the best looking, lol, but they taste really good.

OMG they were good. For dinner I had a half an orange pepper stuffed with steak, onions, mushrooms and cheese then for dessert, we had our chocolate covered fruit. They were so yummy I could eat them all the time, especially the dark chocolate covered frozen banana slices. We definitely need to make them more often. 

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Feb 14, 2018

Feb 15, 2018

 

Great start to my day. I had a little bit of extra time before work this morning and Owen (my 9 yr old son) was behaving so I did 10 minutes on my gazelle. When I got to work, someone had left 2 little mini bite sized chocolate bars on everybody’s desk; I gave my two away right off. We had a meeting this morning so I had my slimfast shake with a half of a banana for my breakfast and coffee. Had my zucchini chicken enchilada casserole for lunch and then my yogurt for my afternoon snack. I did end up eating too many bite-size candy bars because one of the other women took hers, dropped them off on my desk and said, here give these to your kids. I did eat them after my lunch but it was ok. There were only 2, they were mini and I journaled them into MFP right away. I knew I exercised in the morning and then I would be walking a little bit after work too so I was OK with it.
After having a salad for dinner with a little bit of grilled chicken and mozzarella cheese in it, Amber and I were making chocolate dipped fruit for the family for tomorrow for dessert for a late Valentine’s Day treat. We bought 60% dark ghiradelli Chocolate chips, a handful of fresh cherries, package of strawberries, and bananas. We made what we good with that one bag of chocolate and that was it. I had a couple bites while we were making them but didn’t overdo it whatsoever.
All in all I had a really good day. I was even 200 steps shy of my goal for the day so before I got into bed I walked in place to finish off my steps and went to bed.

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Feb 13, 2018

Feb 13, 2018

 

I’m going to have a good day today. I’ve got my food journaled for the day and I’m going to stick to it. Tonight is Tuesday which means we have FPU at the church tonight at 6:00 so I’ll probably work till 5:15 and walk over to the church when I get out then I’ll get my 10-15 min minimum of exercise in. Hopefully it’s not too cold out or raining. I don’t think it’s suppose to be.
Had my breakfast, yogurt with apple and granola and now I’ve got my timer set for when I can drink. That’s one thing I’ve always been 97% faithful in doing.

Did it again today...halfway through my lunch I started feeling full. I held the fork in my hand with another bite on it and stopped; I looked at the bite and thought to myself...is the feeling I’m feeling fullness? What if this is the note that stretches me because I am full? Do I need this bite? I put the bite back in, closed the container and put it aside. Yay! I need to really work on doing that all the time. Like I keep saying...ONE DAY AT A TIME! I ended up finishing my lunch about an hour and a half later which is OK because my afternoon snack was just the slim fast anyways and it was something healthy for me. I just got out of work an hour ago and went for my walk over to the church. Nobody was there yet so instead of standing outside waiting, I put my bags down and I walked laps around the parking lot to get the rest of my steps in and ended up meeting my step goal four the day. Yay!!!! Now I’m gonna go down and eat my salad that I have made with spring mix, avocado, 3 ounces of grilled chicken, a hard-boiled egg, 1 ounce of mozzarella cheese, and some light balsamic vinaigrette. By the time we get home it’ll be almost time for bed so I’m not worried; if I’m hungry I’ll just grab one my pre-portioned out omega-3 trail mixes.
Another good day!!!

 

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Essential Oils

Feb 13, 2018


 

I don’t know if they really help or if it’s just all in the mind but I’m trying them out. I’ve heard a lot of good things so I guess it can’t hurt, right? I have an oil that I found, it’s called SLIM oil blend. I’ve researched different blends to make for cravings and such but it can be pretty costly to buy all the different ones. I’ve also found these little things that look like a chapstick but if you open it up, it’s a little glass vile with a wick in it that you put oils in and it releases the scents. They’re called inhalers I believe. Anyway, the oil that I picked up, SLIM, is a combination of the following oils...
* black pepper
* Grapefruit
* Cinnamon
* Lemon
* Peppermint
* Ginger
It says that it helps boost metabolism, energizes and helps manage cravings. It doesn’t smell that bad either. What I’m trying this week at work is opening my inhaler so the wick is exposed and the smell is more right under me at my desk. I’ll see how the week goes, if I think it’s actually helping me at all or not.

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Feb 12, 2018

Feb 12, 2018


Back to work today from the weekend and I’m feeling pretty good. Had my Greek yogurt for breakfast mixed with a small diced apple, 2T protein granola and 1/2 pkt of no sugar added oatmeal. Drank my slimfast w/ff fairlife milk & 1/2 banana for my mid morning snack and just finished my leftover chicken zucchini enchilada casserole for lunch. I felt myself getting full so put the cover back on it and put it away. I think that is part of my downfall; I feel myself getting full when I'm eating and I feel that if I stop eating that I’m either going to be hungry again in a half hour or I’m just going to sit and think about food all day till it kills me because I didn't "finish' my meal. I really need to learn to stop doing that and thinking like that.
I'm trying to up my water intake a little, even having a cup of tea in between.

After I got home from work I was tired so I figured if I did my exercise right then, then I could just relax for the rest of the evening, so that’s what I did. I did 15 minutes on my simply fit board and it felt really good. I ate my dinner which was Maryland crab cakes  cooked in the air fryer and a serving of cauliflower fried rice which I couldn’t eat much of because I got full quickly and listened to my body this time and put the plate away. We watched a movie after dinner so my snack was another yogurt with omega 3 trail mix in it and frozen blueberries. All in all I had a really good day.

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Feb 11, 2018

Feb 11, 2018

 

I never got around to continuing how yesterday went so I’ll continue now. I turned out to be a decent day. I ate pretty good, did my cleanse and got a decent amount of exercise in. I am happy with how I did. I walked and RAN a little on the treadmill and tried out Angie’s elliptical machine. I loved it and ended up going online and ordering one. Can’t wait till it comes in. We have a room right now that has the treadmill and gazelle in it so that will be perfect. We can exercise at the same time too which will be nice. I find that if you’re doing it with someone else, you’re more apt to do it then if you’re doing it alone.
Today is staring out good too. I drank my slim-fast and banana for breakfast after I drank my cleanse, yum, lol. Planning on making a yummy salad for lunch then my chicken zucchini enchilada casserole for dinner. That IS yummy. I usually portion it all out after dinner and have it for my lunches throughout the week. I can post the recipe if anyone wants it, just let me know. I’ll post if pic of it too. It’s just so yummy AND very healthy. Not sure what I’ll get in for exercise today because after church I have to do taxes and prepare dinner but I’ll at least try something. 

I did it. Had a really good day. Used the elliptical, walked and ran on the treadmill and did good with my food. I forgot to post a pic of my dinner but I do have my leftovers so will try to remember tomorrow. Got my taxes done too and took my shower and just finished my before bed snack; Greek yogurt with blueberries, 1/2 packet no sugar added oatmeal & 1/4 c omega 3 trail mix. 

Bavk to work tomorrow. Got all my breakfasts and lunches ready in the fridge and my work bag for work snd I have my day all planned out in MFP so I will do my best to stick to it. 

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Feb 10, 2018

Feb 10, 2018

Today is the day. Drank my 1st cleanse bottle this morning. Thank goodness it was only 4oz because it was ok but very tart but I drank it. Now I’m having my slimfast shake made with 1/2 banana and fat free fairlife milk. So yummy ????

 

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