Still exhausted and sick

Feb 12, 2018

So I've not posted in a while. Its 3:15am and I'm struggling with insomnia, nausea and pain when i eat or drink.  Dr said I've got ulcers. And another thinks i have diverticulitis as i have painful bms.

I am back to work 20 hrs a week but the struggle to get up everyday is so real. If i go out with my kids or to an event it takes over 24 hrs to recover. Its so frustrating i just want my old life back. I use to be able to go out friday night do mom stuff Saturday then go out the night and be able to be on time for church sunday. Now if i do a load of laundry and make it in the shower that's it.

I'm not going to lie i see people who had surgery and no complications and I'm jealous. I know i shouldn't be but i was so much happier and full of life 118lbs ago...

Now my life is full of pills and dr visits. Waiting for the next set of bad news. Current lab results say the patient results are of one with either liver,  kidney or malnutrition along with anemia. Urine is showing some kind of blood loss. And the list goes on... 

Totally having buyers remorse over my vsg and rny..  

#life

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Feeling under the weather

Nov 10, 2017

Feeling down and just crying. My youngest daughter was sick and home 4 days with me. Now I'm not feeling great at all. Went to my 6 months follow up and the nurse seemed a bit shocked that I've only lost 98lbs I'm a slow loser.

My mood is shitty. I've had a migraine for days and my whole body has been hurting since my revision. They are referring me to a psychiatrist since I'm in counselling but severely in a funk. 

I think its the fact its so dark so early and it feels like -11 in Toronto. 

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Body pain

Oct 11, 2017

So i had my revision surgery on September 13th and i have 1 open incision on and off fever. I been saying to my Dr that i feel unwell.

My back, hip actually my whole body aches like i have a flu but i don't.  Now my sciatic nerve is acting up i even had to start walking with my cane and taking meds as the pain is so bad. I can't even take care of myself or my kids.  

Has anyone experienced their sciatic nerve acting up after surgery? 

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2 weeks post rny revision

Sep 29, 2017

So its been a rough week. 3 incisions opened up on my birthday sept 23rd.  They are painful and oozing but no one seems to care. 

Tried puree this week but it has me nauseous and throwing up.   I don't think WLS is for me.  Only dropped 8lbs or so since surgery.  Can't get my fluids in.

Well thats all for now. Too tired to do anything or even type. I know it will get better it has to.

Happy Friday!

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Home

Sep 17, 2017

So surgery was 9/13/17 due to nausea and vomiting i was released 9/16/17.

I've been home alone struggling to get my protein in as this nausea is horrible.  But I'm happy to report i barely feel the GERD. I forgot what normal felt like. 

I didn't sleep well lastnight. I rolled from my side to my belly which jolted me out of bed like a bad nightmare. 

My strategy tonight is to wedge myself so that i can't roll.

My uvula was injured by the throat tube so i can barely swallow or speak which is hilarious as i just make mumbling noises to get my point across with as little words as possible. My oldest daughter is getting away with murder as she calls and askes me for stuff and interprets everything as yes.  

But i survived surgery #2 and I'm so happy for all my online support.  Every minute is a challenge but i know i will succeed and be successful. 

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Anxious on surgery #2 day

Sep 12, 2017

So in 10 hrs i should be on the operation table fast asleep having my VSG revised to RNY.

I have never been this anxious in my life.  So anxious i woke up with heart palpitations.  I just want to feel normal again.  Be able to live without GERD. No meditations. To be able to lay down in an position. To be able to bend and tie my shoe or puck up something off the floor without this burning.

Who knew that doing something to prolong my life would give me 4 months and 1 week of pure hell and agony.   I hope this is the fix....

Now if i could just settle and sleep easy for 6 hrs that'd be lovely...

See you all on the revised side...

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Hungry

Sep 11, 2017

So my revision is in 2 days and I'm HUNGRY... like HUNGRY my stomach is growling and i got those hunger pains....

The 2nd time around is so much harder than the first time.  I clearly haven't reached ketosis as i shouldn't be this hungry. ....

I honestly don't remember being this hungry the first time around and i was on the pre op diet for 3 weeks then...  

I would do anything for pureed chicken lol... never thought I'd ever say that.. ..

Oh well in 48 hrs my revision will be completed and i will hopefully be sipping on a medicine cup of broth....

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Disappointed

Sep 06, 2017

So i saw the nurse and i have lost 45 lbs since my surgery its been exactly 4 months so thats like average 11lbs a month.

I was so defeated for a moment as she said my weight loss is on the low side.... but she wouldn't comment on how much the average is...

Considering all my complications and hospital visits and staya being pumped up with fluids and calories i didn't think i did as bad as she made it seem. I do wish i was at 60lbs lost by now but it will go.....

Is there an average of monthly weight loss?

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Nervous for revision surgery

Sep 04, 2017

So I'm having my revision surgery on September 13th and i have nerves. I'm more nervous now then I was for my initial VSG. I don't know why but imma go see my counselor tomorrow to work through the issue. 

I start my liquid diet on the 6th and right now I'm just self sabotaging. Eating what i shouldn't and eating too often.  Clearly there's an issue i so need help.  I know i can change and do well and succeed. I think I'm just afraid after my first surgery and with RNY so much more can go wrong. I am so afraid of being incompassistated as its a bew school year and my kids need their only parent 

I know i sound pessimistic but i am just being real.  But this afternoon is a new time for me to make better choices and i will. I have to i must this is not a diet its a lifestyle change. Right?!

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Motility and ph test

Aug 29, 2017

So i got to the hospital at 7:30am this morning to start the process for my ph test.  The motility test was a little rough the technician was very patient but getting the big tube into my stomach via my nose and throat was a bit hard as my throat is always sore.   The numbing spray worked for a little bit but i sure felt everything.  As the tube goes in you are asked to sip water through a straw continuously.  

Then as the test is conducted you have to swallow some water once... if you swallow more than once the time restarts.... now that was a pain in the ass as i always swallow due to my saliva tries to push down the acid that backs up.... he seemed a little annoyed but i couldn't help it.  

Once that was done the tube was pulled out my nose.... that burn oh my ..... what an unusual sensation. 

Then the 24hr ph tube was inserted in the same nostril. To test that the monitor is working you drink a solution that tastes like vinegar.... can we say instant reflux in q syringe ugh.

Well now its in and everytime you swallow it feels like the tube is being pulled on... oh and the runny nose it causes makes you sniffle every few minutes..

Oh well 20 hrs to go...

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Apr 15, 2017
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