Jul 10, 2018
For the past several weeks I have been back and forth about having this surgery. My surgery date is already set for July 20th, but every other day something makes me second guess this choice. Constantly, wondering if I really tried hard enough to lose weight without the surgery and being scared by reading stories of others who had bad experiences.
So I sat down today after once again feeling like I am making a bad decision. I wrote down the pros and the cons of having the surger, and the pros and cons of not having the surgery. After looking at the lists it was clear that the surgery is a good choice. When I looked at the list of items I was worried about giving up, I realized I did not really care as much for those things as I thought I did. Then I looked at the things that were scaring me, such as the possible complications from surgery, and I realized if I did not have the surgery and kept going the way I have with my eating and lifestyle - I would eventually have far worse complications. The pros of having the surgery outweigh the cons.
One other thing I was worried about was negativity from others that think the surgery is a bad choice. I read stories of so many people receiving negative responses from their family and friends, and I did not want to deal with that. For that reason, I have chosen to not tell anyone about the surgery except my husband and a friend which previously had weight loss surgery. Initially my husband did not approve of me having the surgery, but eventually he came around after a few months. When I made my pros and cons list I included the possible negativity from family and friends. Then I realized that even if there is negativity, it will not last and I am not doing this to please others.
My decision to have this surgery is based on my desire to be the best version of me, to be healthy and live long enough to see my children grow up and eventually see my grandkids. I want to live my life, not sit on the sidelines watching my life drift by too tired to do anything. I am making the best choice to live the life I was created to live. The End.