Moma V.

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I've always been overweight, from the get go,  my Dr. told my mother when I was 5 weeks old, I was overweight, it's been uphill ever since.   

I have tried every diet there was, well everything that is affordable. I was very active though, until I fell and dislocated my right hip, 6" and in turn injured my lower back. Well the Back DR. won't fix my back, until I lose weight, I haven't figured out how to loose weight from a sitting position, even with a very low calorie intake.
Weight Watchers at 12 yrs old. Eating like a mouse in high school, I actually tried starvation at one point. I thought I was so fat at graduation, I wish I was that weight again. I wouldn't complain. After graduation, I found a Dr. that prescribed, Black Beauty's *sigh* I gained weight! Later on in life, I was diagnosed as ADD, so that actually only addressed that but not my weight. I tried the grapefruit diet, yuck... but I had all the pucker I needed. Counting calories, measuring my portions. Slim Fast,Adkins, otc diet aids, all with little results, and soon as I didn't do them, the little I lost came back. Desperate to loose weight, after injuring my back, I decided to cut out ALL THE FAT from my diet. Don't NEVER do that! I lost 70lbs.. yay, but when my Dr. found out how I had did it, *I* got scolded. The result was I ended up doing harm to the natural insulin in my body. I went on his advice, to get at least 35 grams of fat a day, and the lbs. all came back, with some extra's lbs. I still to this day, can not tolerate fried, greasy foods from that. Makes me physically ill. I parboil, EVERYTHING! then rinse,cutting the extra fat wherever possible. Oh but I love my rabbit food.  But still I remain MO.  I eat when I'm depressed, then I cry cause I ate it.

I am on disability because of my health. Ohio Medicaid, I have been desperately seeking a Doctor in Ohio that will take this insurance and let me get the surgery. Since I've been reading here about WLS I have found a few doctors. Now I just need approval. Thankyou AMOS!

!!I want to live!!

I want to see my two handsome sons grow up, I want to be a grandmother one day,I think I have a lot of life left in me, if only I could find a way to truly enjoy it. That is not sitting in a chair, looking out the window.  I want to be healthy again. My grandmother passed on at an early age, due to weight problems, my uncle did too, he was heavier than I am now, and younger.  I think I'm pushing my luck at times. My uncle was buried in a casket the size of a refrigerator crate, and squished in it.

After reading for a month or so on this web site, I finally decided to allow my profile to be public. Maybe if the world knows about this surgery, they will understand, this obesity,is a disease, not just an eating problem. MOST OF US have fought with our weights nearly our entire lives, tried it all, time and again. Did we really mean to get MO? I didn't plan it!

My life is my sons, I am a single mother of two of the most cutest and handsomest sons! There are so many things I like to do, but haven't "felt" like doing lately. I'm tired, my back hurts, I've got a headache, I have no energy. I'm too fat to go to the sports events and have comfortable seating. I love amusement parks, I live close to the world famous Cedar Point, but the last time I was there, 2 rides, with squishing, I almost didn't get to ride. I used to lovvvve playing hard, whatever it was, until I hurt my back, I played hard, now with years of weight problems, the two parts put together make it hard to enjoy life. Hard to get around. Hard to be a good parent too, when one's depressed about their health.  I do so love them, and I am so glad they are MINE, they make me proud. One thing my sons have never done is pretend they are NOT related to me at school functions or out in public.  They treat me with love and respect, and like a lady.  They will grow up to be good men. I think one good thing my weight has taught my boys is to look past the cover of the book, and read whats inside. 

The rest of my journey is achived, please feel free to read it.. going on my 2nd surgiversary now, 11/22 was my re-birthday!