Rebecca1492
Two Months Post Gastric Bypass Surgery
Jan 29, 2017
Saturday was my two month "surgiversary." I have lost about 28 lbs so far. It is not happening magically, asI had hoped. I have to work for this. But somehow this time is different than all the previous times. PErhaps because my tastes have changed. Sweets don't taste all that good anymore, and if I eat too much, I get terrible diahreah and it is just not worth it. I am keeping track of every bite that goes in my mouth. Sometimes the idea that I have to pack a lunch every single day or be faced with the fact that it is noon and I have to figure out how to feed myself gets overwhelming. I am still a little afraid of eating out. I prefer the comfort of the scale and measuring cups in my own kitchen. I went to a get together at a friend's house on Friday and she had lots of stuff I could eat. I had told her I was focusing on protein so she had salame, cheese slices, almonds, and brie (along with the standards of chips, cookies, and wine - I wasn't the only guest!) It was such a relief to get there and see that there was good food I could eat. At the same time, I was trying to estimate how much I can eat, which kind of scares me. If I eat too much I get VERY nauseous, and for some reason I am still struggling with recognizing my body's signal that I have had enough. Thus the desire to weigh and measure everything. I know my limits if I can weigh and measure. But just eyeballing things - I have had some failures at that.
I have discovered that I will not always dump from eating sugar. I will dump if I eat too MUCH sugar, but I CAN have some sweet things without getting violently ill. I am not sure how I feel about this. Part of me is thrilled. Trying to avoid every bit of sugar was taxing and not always tht easy. Another part of me is afraid. If I can eat sugar, perhaps I will go back to my old ways. Perhaps it will become a slippery slope that I slide down while my weight balloons back up. This is somethign I will have to keep an eye on. Sweets are my trigger. I cannot let it get out of control again.
I have so much more energy than I had before the surgery. Some of that is because I am finally getting to SLEEP again! Yay! Two years of gradually decreasing sleep until one is getting less than a couple of hours a night is a good way to feel like crap all the time. So the sleep alone is a huge boost. But I am starting to notice cues from my body that I would not recognize before. If I eat poorly, for example, I realize that I am a little more tired and my morning workouts don't go as well the next day. I think I previously just always felt bad, so now that I feel good I notice more than I previously did. I am FAR more active than I used to be. I get up every morning and work out on the elleptical machine we have for 35 minutes. On Thursdays I go to Yoga. It's just an intro class but I like the stretching and posing I am learning and try to incorporate some of the moves before my AM workout. I am also trying to do more with the kids. A couple of weeks ago we all went ice skating and I catually DID IT! For a couple of hours. I was terrible, but I still stayed on the ice. Pre surgery I would have made an excuse and sat on the sidelines. Today I took all the kids on a bike ride in a local park. It was cold and I got an earache, but I DID IT. THese are things I would not have previously done.
I took measurements the night before my surgery, and although I know I am losing weight, I feel like I have not lost a huge amount, so I am totally surprised at the inches coming off. I keep telling my husband that I think we are doing the measurements wrong every month, because I just cannot fathom that I have lost FOUR INCHES off of my waist alone. Maybe at some point I will actually HAVE a waist! (when he is helping me measure my husband always asks, "Where do you want me to measure?" and I reply, "On my waist!" and he looks c onfused. I guess I don't exactly have much of a waist!) I am also losing in my bust, which surprises me as my bust is totally fake (bi lateral mastectomy in 2012) but I guess it is my back fat that is dminishing. Hips, arms, and thigh are also melting away. I love this new me, but I am also afraid. Afraid it won't last. But determined that it WILL last!
