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Okay so let me start off with this; I struggle with the term "journey" being used all. the. time. when I read WLS blogs etc. It always seems overused, and I used to thing it was kind of corny.

But you know what? I am wrong. This IS a journey. We have optimistic plans of where we want to wind up, we have a vague idea of what our road is going to be, there are going to be choices to make, detours, debris in our path, etc. There really isn't too many other words to describe what we are are going through. So "journey" it is.

So. Back to the stats and facts.

Today (April 16, 2018) is my first day of 3 weeks of Optifast, before I have RNY Gastric Bypass.

So, a couple of years ago, I joined the 'medical programme' (ie. non-surgical weight loss plan) through the hospital. During that time, I spend about 3 months on Optifast. So, 3 weeks is nothing to me haha. I actually quite like the flavour and never really had an issue with hunger or anyting (fingers crossed that is still the case). The only thing that tripped me up a bit was just 'routine'. Sitting at the kitchen table with the family sipping a shake was wierd. Not show-stopping or anything, but that's where I struggled the most. So will find a way to work around that.

Hubby is going to take some "before" pics for me tonight. Going to try to decide on clothing for that that I can replicate consistantly as my body changes, so it's easy to see those changes. I am thinking just yoga pants and a tight tank top. (UGH!) hahah.

Well, I know this should be this very dramatic "NEW ME" post, but I'm not feeling it. hahah! It's super cold; there was an ice storm here last night, I am working remotely, logged in from home with the kids around me (snow day) and just kind of feeling like I want to get under blankets. I am sure I will be more excited as time goes on, but right now, I am just sort of yawning and sipping water :) Very anti-climatic docuementation of "THE FIRST DAY OF MY JOURNEY!" hahah

xo

Well, this is pretty stereotypical :) Here it is, the second day of the new year, and I am posting a nice "new year, new me!" weight loss blog :)

Well, as dopey and cheesey as that is, I do find that I do better at... well, pretty much everything, when I am able to put thoughts down, share with people, be kind of 'social' and feel a sense of community in something I am trying to accomplish. I know my 'personality types' quite well (I love studying that shit, to be honest!) and I know that I am very much into being a cheerleader and really into teamwork.. soooo... yeah! Let's go!!

So my story...

I am in my early 40s. I have 2 kiddoes under the age of 12. I am happily married, albeit to a man who's never struggled with weight and who enjoys working out. I have a pretty intense job that I work full time, and that I do love, although I do wish I could just have more time to myself and to my family.

I've been overweight my entire life, starting with being taller and thicker than my classmates in elementary school, chubby in high school, a brief period where I was 'normal' in my twenties, and then slowly progressing upwards since then.

I've tried every diet ever,  and with the typical success rate - hahah! After going through a weight loss program through our local hospital, I came to realize that I in fact had an actual disorder - binge eating disorder.

I am a troubleshoter by nature! :) So therefore, I researched the heck out of this, and got myself on Vyvanse, along with Cognitive Behavioural Therapy... and I seem to have it under control.. for several months now.

So... now, I have begun the process of WLS.

I have recieved my referral, gone to one in-class information session, gone for many requried tests, met with the nurse for a conusltation, and now I am going through the steps she needs me to take for her to be able to clear me for surgery. I don't have a date yet (OMG I wish I had at least an estimate!) but I am working on getting it all done.

To be honest, I STILL am not entirely sure that I want to proceed through surgery,.. but I at least want the option!