365

Jun 11, 2016

It felt good to see this on the scale today. 365 lbs... my heaviest was 453 but honestly i think I weighed more before I started getting on a scale, just a feeling... I would guess I was 475 at tops. I had gotten down to 350 but in the year after I lost my Mommy, I had almost got back to 400 lbs. Dr office scales were tipping over 380s and it had been awhile since I weighed.... the two hospital visits helped me come down some of course, so I am guessing I would be 400 lbs otherwise. Not a pretty picture and not that I need an excuse for my regain but I consider it a relapse. My current psychiatric care has postponed my desire for a sleeve. I am going to a new primary doctor soon who I have read about and was once obese himself and is more accepting and helpful of obese patients. I think my health has been disregarded by my last primary as "its all because your weight" and lack of actual tests for diabetes, skin conditions, urinary issues. Kidney stones and dehydration is why I went to the ER and then after that the need to get back on track with my medications as the reason for the scond visit. The care I got helped me decided I needed a new doctor. So that is my plan fofr the rest of 2016.I will focus on health. I even have my medications on a automatic refill system and I use this awesome app on my phone to help me remember. I did demo quite a few but Medisafe was the best and its even fun to use. It was easy to setup and I take my medications on time. You can use it for supplements, vitamins and pre- or post-op medications, too. Mine uses the "Minions' reminder... its so funny... they tell me twie a day its tim to take my medications. My latest cocktail of medications included rexulti and I think it helps. It was important to my psych doctor to take this instead of lyrica or abilify due to weight gain side effects of those. So happy she understands I dont need anything helping me gain weight and she likes my slow but steady progress to lose it. I believe once my health is in full check I may consider the sleeve again. I have watched the progress of thsi surgery for a long time and I want to be ready both physically and mentally with full support of my family this time. Surgery or not... I am doing this for me... one pound at a time. Blesings upon your journey, my friends! 

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