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Realizations
Mar 05, 2018
Well, for the most part, about 95% of my surgical pain is gone. I saw my surgeon this past Friday, and he said that with extensive as my surgery was, he's not surprised that I still have pain. He even told me that I may have pain in the future, as my adhesions grow back. ICK!!! Another thing that he told me is that since I had the DS 7 years after I was sleeved, that my weight loss would be much slower than someone who had their DS/sleeve at one time. I can certainly attest to that, because since my surgery on 2/1, I have only lost 20 lbs. But I'm doing my best to not become discouraged. I keep telling myself that it's a marathon and not a sprint. And today, I became reaquainted with my treadmill. Since it's my first day, I didn't get too crazy, and I only did a quarter of a mile. But that's ok. Again, it's a marathon, and not a sprint.
I'm still having difficulty getting in all of my protein. The shakes are sooooooo disturbingly sweet, so I'm not really interested in them. My NUT suggested that I put some cocoa powder in them to cut some of the sweetness, or add some PB2. I'm definitely going to try both of those suggestions.
I am back to eating regular food. I had a 5 oz salmon filet the other night, and it was all I could do to keep it down. As a matter of fact, I couldn't finish it. It was very odd. That's the only problem that I've had, which is a good thing. I made a meatloaf last night, and put 3 chunks on my plate. And then I promptly ate 1 chunk, which was probably about a tablespoon, and I had about a cup of steamed broccoli, which I ate all of. I also made these incredibly decadent sticky buns, which my family loves. I was particularly tempted, but later on, I found myself picking at the nuts and the raisins. So I sent several home with my significant other, and today, I'm taking the rest to a friend of mine. I love to bake, but I don't necessarily love to eat what I bake. I've been doing it for so long, that I just don't get tempted like that anymore. But when I get really hungry, sometimes it's easier to reach for those white carbs than it is to make something healthy. So why tempt fate?
I did have a moment last week, where I went into the store without my cane. IT WAS AWESOME!!! I still have back pain, but even losing those 20 lbs has really made a difference. It gives me hope that I made the right decision in having the completion. I was so hoping that once I started losing weight again, that my back pain would improve. So as I lose more and more weight, it would be nice to leave my cane behind altogether 
!! As I was making dinner yesterday, I realized that I still can't stand for long periods of time, but again, I'm hopeful that there will come a time when I don't even notice the pain anymore.
Well, I guess that's all for now. Thanks for listening.
