i have lost 122lbs and it has been almost 8 mo. but not quite.

Jul 06, 2011

it has been a little bit since i have wrote anything on here. i broke up with my boyfriend and thought the world was going to end but it has been almost 3 months now and i am on to much better things. i have found a country boy and i couldn't have asked for more. school is driving me crazy and so stressful! i have about three weeks left and am close to not passing my class and the teacher i have singles people out every year or so i have heard and tries her damnest to fail you somehow. i am pretty sure she has picked me out. these last 3 weeks have been hell. wish me luck! i am going to try my hardest to prove to her I CAN do this and that she can kiss my butt :)~ I went shopping for a pair of jeans yesterday and bought a size 14. that is half the size i was when i started out! i started out in a  size 28. There and good and bad things about this surgery. All kinds of foods still seem to make me sick and i find myself somedays eating nothing without even realizing it until i lay down to go to sleep. i almost would rather be a little hungry than feel like crap. My hair is still falling out and i am going to have to start saving my money up for a full body lift. my arms, tummy and legs are starting to look like i am in my 80's when i am only in my 20's. my boobs was small enough to start out with but they was one of the first things to go too! I am under 200 now (197) and that is a major thing for me. i remember being in second grade and weighing more than i do now. it has also happened so fast! sometimes i have to look in the mirror several times before i tell myself this is real. i am getting sick of tea and am mourning the fact still that i cannot have an ice cream cone this summer without paying for it (getting a tummy ache and major poops!) i tried it once! lol. guys are starting to notice me more...my friends even joke with me when we go out and eat on lunch break from school and say damn we can't take you anywhere anymore..lol. i have had several girls that were jealous though say som pretty mean things to me and today when i went out to lunch with my friends a heavier set girl kept giving me the evil eye as she was having lunch. i wanted to look at her and tell her my story then i realized i probally use to have the same look on my face several times...and i am starting to see what it is like from the other girls view now. so anyways i am happy but at the same time not so much. i like losing the weight and i feel great but at the same time i want to fit into my body. well guess this is enough for now. hope everyone else is doing great :)

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