campingmama
This is my first post and I am happy to have found this site! I need lots of positive influences in my life right now.
I was going to say that I have my first appointment tomorrow, the information session and meet the surgeon appointment, but It is in actually about 12 hours at 1pm tomorrow. I'm not nervous, but excited. This has been a LONG time coming. I think the thing I am afraid of is that my BMI is too high for them to do the surgery. But, I am determined to be healthy and STONG!
I am 53 and have thought about weight loss surgery for many years. In fact, I have even made the appointment before, but tomorrow, I am going. NOTHING is getting in the way this time.
My family is extremely supportive......all that I have told anyway.
My 88 year old dad moved in with us 5 months ago, he has congestive heart failure, 2nd stage kidney failure, COPD, and other heart issues besides CHF. I have NOT told him of my plan. I probably won't until just before surgery.
Last week my daughter (the only one left at home, she's 15 next month) and I made cookies for my dad. He goes to his old house when he feels up to it now that he is stronger and we sent ALL the cookies with him. Yesterday, when he came home, he said he felt guilty about taking them all. I said we can't have that stuff in the house cuz I can't stay out of it. He said it's just a matter of will power. Yeah right, I said.
If it was JUST will power, I wouldn't be in this situation. 331 pounds, 5' '1" and 53 years old. 
It's a REALLY long story about my weight issues, but needless to say, Daddy doesn't help the situation. I think he will be my biggest obstacle. He will think it's the easy way out. Whatever!
My husband and I have been married for 20 years this May. He has three girls from a previous marriage and I have two boys and two girls from my first marriage, and we have our daughter, our almost 15 year old. The most we ever had home at one time was 6 and it was a blast.....most of the time.
My kids are boys 36 and 34, girls 31 and 29. I love my kids......and my husband's middle daughter, who is 26. The others, well, that's another story!
I have tried about every diet out there. Weight Watchers, which I believe is a good program, lost 85 pounds in 1988. Got down to about 150 and got stuck. Then slowly gained it all back PLUS! I've been on Atkins, South Beach, Grapefruit, Cabbage Soup, Slim Fast, taken diet pills in the 70's. I couldn't keep off the weight. When on WW, I felt like I could not move from 148 and stayed there for months. I did everything right!!!! And I got discouraged that I would never hit THEIR goal weight and just gave up.
Atkins .....omg, lost 35 pounds in 6 weeks, but man was I SICK! I have had terrible trouble with my bowels ever since.
So, I'm not sure what my real goal weight will be. I say 125 cuz that's what the BMI says in in the middle. But, I think I will discuss it with my doctor. I'm older, NOT that it is an excuse, but I just don't know what is really reasonable and healthy anymore. Certainly not model and Barbie thin.
There is lots more I could say, but it is getting late. I hope to have good news and lots more info tomorrow eveing.
