Milestones and hurdles

Nov 16, 2015

I'm going through a variety of emotions: pissed off, upset, angry, happy, and sad. You name it; I'm probably experiencing it. I got my letter from my doctor the other day about the approval from my insurance provider. There was a known "must lose 10 lb prior to the surgery" contract made between me and my doctor when I signed on to this train. It's one of the reasons I believe I started losing so quickly because I knew I wanted to do this! The letter from my surgeon though revealed I must lose a shocking 35 lbs in order for my insurance to cover it. Now, given that I've lost 27 lbs that shouldn't be such a big deal, right? It's just 8 more lbs. That's 8 lbs I must lose by Dec 1st; my pre-op appointment! I, theoretically, have until Dec 3rd, two weeks prior to my surgery, BUT it was stressed that if I don't make it by the time of my pre-op appointment, my surgery could be rescheduled. I immediately panicked! I begin googling rapid weight loss plans and instantly thought of going with a liquid weight loss plan. That plan lasted all of 4 hours. Not because I couldn't stick to it, but because I was scared of the damage I may be doing to my body without consulting with my doctor. Essentially, I came to my senses. So, I'm back to the meal plan my doctor gave me. Strict proteins in limited quantities and lots and lots of water. I even am trying to up my exercise routine. If you read my other post, then you realize that exercise is something that is very hard for me currently. I hurt badly when I do try to walk, so I try to swim. Living in the NE, that gets a little hard as we don’t have a lot of good weather and the Y doesn’t have a lot of availability for swim time unless you take a swim class or can go in the morning. So today, I got back on the treadmill and I actually walked for 30 minutes at a pace of 2.8 mph! I felt GREAT afterwards! Maybe it’s losing the weight I have lost or maybe it’s just the refusing to give up. Either way, I am refusing to give up. I will lose this last 8 lbs and I will have this surgery! I will do the liquid diet, when my doctor tells me to do it and not before. I won’t cause damage to my body or weaken it before the surgery. I want to be sure I’m not doing something that could somehow impair my ability to heal after the surgery.  So that's that... Tomorrow, I will go back to the Y and I will get back on that treadmill and I want to extend my walk to 31 minutes. My goal is to extend each day by 1 minute until I can do an full hour. 

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