debbie13
Regain - again
Jul 08, 2012
Once again I am trying to face my regain and get it off. With the help of a fantastic therapist friend (insurance won't cover what I need) I have come to a point where I recognized why it happened. Sort of. I always knew when. I could look at the dates when weights were recorded and see the numbers. My friend made me look at life events. Oh fuck. She's a therapist. That's her job. She using her skill on me. Damn. Ok. So I looked.When I was at my lowest people were telling me I looked sick and that I needed to stop losing. Gee thanks friends. I wasn't at goal but close. Then I did some stupid shit personally. Not going into details but lets just say I am lucky. And then my bariatric surgeon died - suddenly and traumatically. I soothed my soul with food. Every day. Yeah I know, shouldn't do that. But I'm not a drinker. Oh wait, that's not good for you either.
Ok, so, I know the cause. Now to deal with it. Lots of hours burning up the cell phone. Thankfully we are in different time zones and I work nights sometimes. Probably mild PTSD. Lots of tears. Lots of anger. Lots of release of pain.
Am I ready to face the regain? Don't know. Gonna try. Again.
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About Me
Cossayuna, NY
Location
33.5
BMI
Surgery
03/30/2009
Surgery Date
Jan 29, 2009
Member Since
