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I'm super excited to say I'm employed.  I actually put 2 applications in and was hired on my second one I am now the new Team Lead cashier/supervisor at Goodwill industries of America I'm geeked I'm getting paid to walk and working it's a little bit difficult walking so much bu I'm determined to lose.  I'm at a stall right now so I'm not losing at all but I knew everyone jas stalls I'm enthusiastically waiting for it to pass! 

 im like a zombie I haven't slept in 2 nights I'm just overwhelmed I can't sleep not even on my meds I by all practical points and purposes should be knocked out.  But here am I wide awake.  I'm thinking of how long I've waited for this to happen and I am still in disbelief in about 6 or 7 hours I'm gonna be in surgery.  I'm so grateful I'm getting it and I'm happy im gonna finally lose all this weight.  I'm an emotional basket case.  I have my bestie Lisa and my daughter Ramona spending the night everyone is sleeping and I can't seem to squeeze my eyes shut to save my life.  Oh well i guess I'll sleep after I'm sleeved.  I spent my entire day preparing the house doing laundry cleaning dishes sweeping mopping cooking and I took a wonderful shower and put my pjs on after I took my medication nothing to eat after 6 pm and nothing to drink after midnight.  I really should be sleeping.  So I'm gonna try Good night!

I'm nervous I'm hoping everything goes as planned no hiccups.  I'm preparing the house so whem I get home I have a comfortable place to heal for a while I have to make sure I'm ready for when I come home I know I'm not going to feel like cooking so I'm gonna do crock pot meals for a bit until I'm feeling better. I'm trying to find work too as soon as I am well I have to work I need money and I am going to be needing cash because I won't be a freeloader.  I can't wait to say I am at goal!  I know my weight loss is going to be the beginning of my new life.  Today my son gave me a mountain bike so i can ride I plan on riding as much as I can I am very excited to get started.  I'm going to give it a try tomorrow it's been years since I've ridden a bike but I use to ride all the time so I think I can still remember how.  Mostly I'm excited that my surgery is only 4 days away I still need somone to pinch me.  God has brought me here and I'm more grateful than I could ever express.  I'm in hopes that someday I'll be an advocate for surgery for people who need to have it done.  I would love to have a foundation that helps people who can't afford surgery.  I would've had the surgery long ago if there was such a thing.  Some people really need help and it would mean the world to me to be able to help people here in the USA and keep our money state side instead of Mexico.  Cash pay option in the US I've invis Invisioned it and may be able to make my dream come to furishion.  I'm not going to stop until it happens.

I'm extremely emotional I can't seem to get a grip.  Today I realized that I went from a bmi of 56.3 to a bmi of 48.9 from April to August I think a weight loss of 37 pounds in 4 months is absolutely awesome but I didn't even realize it.  It's  now 9 days before surgery and I weigh 242 I had a goal I'm sure I will not make of 222 before surgery I am still gonna try my best to make it but It's not the end of the world I extremely proud of my progress and am a work in progress.  I feel like I've made a lot of progress and am so happy with every single pound. 

I'm fortunate that I do have a wonderful daughter and son who support my decision.  Right now I'm feeling like my boyfriend isn't being as supportive as i would've liked him to be I'm assuring him this is gonna change a lot for me.  I have goals that I shared with him and I'm not even sure they made a difference for him.  I made a post and ranted about my dismay and have had an awesome outpouring of support from my OH clan and I feel so much better now thanks everyone!

Today I took some pre op pictures before I start my pre op diet next week excited because ive seen several posts 5 and 6 week post op I'm inspired and happy in about a little over 8weeks I'll be where they are.  That isn't long.  I'm gonna finally be on the losers bench!

I'm so grateful for finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel I've been through good and bad but the key is I've been through it

  I'm finally gonna have my surgery today I received a letter from the hospital confirmation it's happening I've waited so long for the day it's finally gonna be my turn to live without obesity it's my choice and I know it's right for me.  

II can not wait to be an inspiration to others and have my beauty on the outside match my beauty on the inside.  And also all the doors that are going to open in my near future.

I'm not one of little faith I've struggled to make this happen I can say that I'm happy with my decision to have VGS.  I'm now on my way my new life.  I have only one regret that is that I could not do it sooner.  I know that a lot of things are going to change but I'm ready both mentally and physically.  Next week I start my pre op diet and then I will be sleeved.  I'm excited to begin my new life.  Anyone that is considering surgery as an option the best thing I can tell you is research your options be 100% sure that surgery is right for you.  I never thought I'd ever say I'm proud to be a loser   i that cracks me up!  

Feel real Good right now I'm going to see Dr Foote on Monday June 29,2015 and the Psyc the same da..  then i have my endoscopy on the 1s1st of July 2015 then i will have completed all the stuff they wanted me to complete.  Excited to get on the losers bench!  Lol the first time in my life I've wanted to be a loser. 

I have a ton of appointments this month to prepare for mu surgery.  I have a stress test next Tuesday the 23 rd of June 2015 the 22nd I'm going for a fasting blood test, then my first visit with the doctor and my psyc apt. on the 29th and my endoscopy on the 1 st of July hope to have my surgery by July I would be so happy.