Day 8... Learning what abstinence is all about

Feb 06, 2017

So today was a good day for me despite my husband being off today for the Super Bowl (who does that?) and cooking pizza, smelling up my house, and looking at me like an idiot when I tell him that its not cool. LOL. Today was truly about me beginning to see my strength in this beautiful process. Typically, I would have gone for a slice, let it blow up in my stomach, really felt sick because its too much bread and we arent supposed to be able to tolerate that anyway, an dgetting heartburn later after it finally went down. Can you say self sabotage? But today I just went into the bedroom, closed the door, turned on my favorite tv show and took a nap. That was huge! But it gets better, once I got up I saw that stupid pizza still sitting on the stove and I politely asked him to please put it away. He goes, "You don't like these anyway... Don't they give you heartburn???" Uhhh Yeah! But in the mind of a food addict who cares? That's what Tums are for! He immediately went and put it away and I got on my treadmill and did a great workout then did abs and arms... Listening to gospel music then listening in on an OA meeting. It was awesome. My connection with God is growing stronger and stronger everyday and for that, I am grateful. Controlling the impulse to overeat (binge) is what abstinence means to me.

"Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will recieve the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him." -James 1:12

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