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So I have not blogged, messaged, or posted anything in a while!  However, I have lost 42 lbs, started a serious exercise program and have managed to keep it up for 22 days in a row now!  I am happy happy happy with my rny decision...and it is working for me.  I think it has been long enough now that I have settled into a groove that feels right.  I miss food less (most of the time) now and this is a relief.  I can't say if it will always be this way but I'll take it for now!

I had two wow moments this week.  Onederland......and.....snowshoing to a back country yurt while being able to keep up with my 23 year old son!!!!  WOW!!!!!

So....all is well.....great actually.

Here are the stats:  Down 20 lbs and a solid pant size.                                                                                                                          
                                    Managing a full 70 + grams of protien every day.
                                    Taking all vitimins and have only missed one or two a few times.
                                     Still staying away from carbs, but no problem eating anything I've tried.


OK so all this being said, I still miss food sometimes and I always miss not being able to drink anything with meals.  I have always been a "food pairer" and did not realize how much I enjoyed this.  The thing I miss about food is how it accompanied my events or activities...like movies/popcorn, Sunday football/chips & dips etc.  Now I find myself not caring as much about doing these things because somehow it doesn't feel like it will be as much fun without the food.  Hummmm..........

I just today came off a solid 8 day stall, which did not throw me too much I'm happy to report!  I'm sure this is just the first of many and as I read something similar on another post this morning and happen to agree....this is not a quick speedy road I'm on to quickly reach a goal so I can return to old ways, but a NEW and very DIFFERENT life I am seeking.  I am positive that in time new ways of being will have rewards yet unseen.

In the meantime.......I am dedicated to holding steadfast to what the experts and those further along have said to do.  Get in my protien & fluids, exercise, and trust that the new life will follow.  I'm convinced that it's true, or I never would have done this.....and YES I am getting glimpses of this new life already. 

and managing 45-55 gr of protien each day, still feeling really good, and getting in walks of 2-3 miles almost every day!  I'm down 16 lbs.  i am however ready and lookling forward to adding real food to my diet, even if it's soft.

and I feel SO good!  My friends and family keep saying "are you sure you had major surgery?".   And the only thing I can really say back is "I KNOW!!!".  I am having no problems at all....and am keeping my fingers crossed that this continues.  Plus, I am down 10 pounds.....not to shabby!

I only woke up once last night....ahhhh...SO good to be in my own comfy bed!  I got up this morning and had 4 oz of protien drink which took about 45 minutes.....but I did it.  A little later I had my first vitimin & calcium chew.  I"m till working on my first 8 oz of water...sip at a time.  I took two 3 year olds on a walk around the block...needless to say they ran circles (literally) around me...but again...I did it!  Now I'm ready to take a rest then think about "lunch".

Lunch..1/2 packet of unjury chicken flavored.  Not too bad....could use a few chunks of meat & some veggies! :)

After lunch I fell sound asleep for about an hour, and now I'm drinking...oops I mean SIPPING my vitiman packet disolved in water.  Tastes pretty good!

OK, so I tried the other half of the unjury for dinner, but heated it up too much and it looks wierd.  I went for a few spoonfuls, but took a walk and came home to pour 4 oz of protien drink instead.  I'm going to have a popcicle before bed....they pretty much rule as far as I'm concerned.  Im trying to learn to be a burper.  I've never been one, but now it makes me feel better and relieves a pressure that lies in my chest/breast/neck area.  It's gas......oh boy!  Totally managable when I can get in a little burp!

So all in all I would consider this a very successful first day home.  I can't imagine they will all be this smooth....but one can hope!  I haven't taken any meds. since 1 this afternoon, so I'm going to medicate myself and call it a day.

So I'm here...and doing pretty good I think!  I'm sipping my first protien drink, and it's going down ok so far.  I think I slept my first day at the hospital, but as soon as they took me off the morphine, I began to feel more like myself.  My tummy does not really hurt...but is tender.  I've been sipping water and eating popcycles at the hospital..and that went good too.

All of my friends, and that includes those of you here, have been SO GREAT!  I just KNOW that it's this love and support that sends the right messages to the Gods and helps us heal. :)  So THANK YOU!!!!!

I do however get tired after doing practically nothing...like this...so off to bed I go!  Night all!

I almost can't believe it's my last night.  I'm nervous, and excited.  New territory is always a little scary........!!!

So while at my pre-op apt. on Thursday.....Dr Oakley says "How about Monday morning instead of Tuesday?"   Ummmmm, wellll, OK!!!!  So...I have been scrambling to get everything I thought I still had almost three weeks to do, done in three.  It's fine with me because now I'm so busy I don't have time to get tooo crazy about it all.  Plus (and this has been HUGE) I asked him for something to help me sleep because my brain simply won't shut off.  He ordered me 5 Ambian.......ahhhhhhhh.....sweet slumber no longer avoids me.  I will arrive rested and ready first thing Monday morning.

I ate my favorite Pizza for dinner tonight, and I'm tearing up a little about it now....I did not expect this.  Tomorrow I will be eating "normal for me" for the last time.  I'm ready, and emotional, and now going to take a pill and go to bed.

So today, the dr. office called again and said...so.....how about next Tuesday?  I said WHAT?  WOW!  I quickly made a few phone calls then called them back to say YES YES YES!  I go see him tomorrow then over to the hospital for pre-op blood work.  I almost don't know which end is up I'm so excited, and nervous. 

So today I get a call from the doctor saying they are moving my date UP!  Now it's October 26th!  I don't know why 8 weeks out just seems so much more within my grasp than 12, but it does.  I actually feel jittery in my stomach!  Oh man!  Last night I was lying in bed thinking about how great it's going to be to not have legs that ache at the end of the day.  Then today I was watching something on TV and dreaming about being able to buy cloths anywhere.....and ones that I actually LIKE and not just what I can fit into!!!  Moving the date make all this happen for me 4 weeks sooner and I am greatful.  I am very very tired of lugging this baggage around.