Day Two of Doing Better

Feb 22, 2017

(I don't anticipate updating daily, but I am trying to build some momentum and accountability, so it feels like the right thing for now.)

Major disappointment today: literally no time to exercise. Immediately after work my husband and I had to run to a committee meeting for the org where we volunteer, then grab a couple things at the grocery store, now home and...it's already past my bedtime and I am in danger of falling asleep at the keyboard. I know it's important to carve out time to exercise, but today it felt impossible. Part of that is the ever-present fatigue, which was definitely made worse today by how lousily I slept last night. Just bad sleep, and plenty of nightmares. Here's hoping tonight will be better.

On the upside, I came in under my MyFitnessPal-generated calorie goal, so...yay? 

Tomorrow will also be a challenge since we have friends coming over to game pretty much right after work, but in that case I think I can talk myself into squeezing in maybe fifteen minutes on the treadmill before they arrive. We'll see. I'll try. I really don't like the idea of going two days in a row without dedicated exercise time. 

There was cake in the office break room today as part of a celebration for folks with February birthdays. I sang along to Happy Birthday but then went back to my desk and eventually contented myself with a protein bar. (Such martyrdom!) Sigh. Every time I resist something like that, it makes it a little less difficult to resist next time. Besides, it's helpful that I only recently started this job—if I'm thinking of myself as someone who has never eaten sweets at the office, it's easier to be that person, if that makes sense. (Rather than being the person who ate five cupcakes last week but turns down doughnuts today, you know?) A new job feels like a new chance to be a slightly more responsible version of me, and I don't want to mess that up. (Even if literally no one at work pays attention to what anyone else eats; it's an in-my-head thing, but that's a powerful type of thing, so.)

Zzz. Off to beauty sleep. 

PS: staying hydrated is for chumps. 80+ ounces of fluid today so I was basically peeing every five minutes all damn day. Bah! 

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