Eight years? Where does the time go?

Jul 16, 2011

 Eight years.  2003.  The first Bush administration.  Wow. 

I'm  hanging in there.  Weight and the gaining and losing of it has not been at the forefront of my mind in some time, despite the fact that I still have a ways to go to reach my ultimate goal.  Life takes over and you go on autopilot.  That's just the way it is with some of us.

It's why I'm so glad I have this Band.   It's doing its job beautifully.  My last fill hit he sweet spot, and that was in August 2005 (I remember because it was immediately before Katrina - and I do mean immediately.  Like 2 weeks before.  The clinic was wiped out in the storm).  I never would have dreamed that a fill could last 6 years.  And there's no sign of change, either.  Hell, maybe it's not the fill.  Maybe the sucker's eroded.  

Evidently I can't manage much more than stream of consciousness tonight.  But either way, I'm happier than I've been in a long time, with a much better self-image and brighter affect.  Life is good.
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5 years ago today ...

Jul 17, 2008

5 years ago today, I was sitting in a sunny hospital room in pre-Katrina New Orleans, sipping clear liquids and loving my life for the first time in awhile. 

I had a sense of pride and accomplishment, even though I was at the very beginning of my journey.  I had no idea what was in store for me, and I thought that at 5 years out, I would be at goal and post plastic surgery. 

What an innocent I was!  I am not at goal, and plastic surgery seems a distant dream.  But I am content.  I am down over 100 pounds from my starting weight, and that alone seemed like a distant dream, from that hospital bed 300 miles and 5 years away. 

Am I where I "should" be?  No.  Am I happy, healthy and fulfilled, with a sense of accomplishment and success? 

Yes.  A thousand times yes. 

The Scale Looms!

Mar 04, 2008

Have mercy .. has it been since November?  

Well, you know, it has been at least that long since I'd weighed, and we've had .. oh .. a few holidays since then.  And a birthday.  

Suffice it to say I have not been the best of bandgirls.  

I am fat fat fatfatfatfat .. I had probably lost a few pounds on the medical regimen I posted about, and my new 20-year reunion jeans were spiraling around my waist, but here lately they haven't been doing that much anymore, so I was expecting that I'd gained 10-15, maybe even 20 pounds .. (you know how your mind works) ..

So I snuck up on the scale and weighed before I had a chance to think about it and psych myself out.

I haven't gained a pound.  In fact, I've lost one.

HAH!  How about that?!

I'm still plateauing, but that's okay .. I'm not working the Band right now, so I'm holding steady at 215.  My body likes 215 a lot.  

That bit of good news does make the treadmill and free weights look a lot more inviting, though.  




The holidays are upon us .. RUN!

Nov 17, 2007

RUN FOR YOUR LIVES!!!

Hee!  I love the holidays.  I do.  I adore Halloween, which is  past us now, and we have our family reunion on Thanksgiving, and then, of course, there's Christmas.  

Since we have our big family to-do on Thanksgiving, our Christmases are very low-key and laid back, which is exactly how I like it.  Everybody else runs around like headless chickens.  Not us.  

I decided to re-think all the stuff I typically bring to our Thanksgiving reunion.  The deviled eggs are out.  Honestly?  Nobody eats them.  They are labor-intensive to a ridiculous degree, and my brother might eat two.  The rest go in the take-home plates.  Yeah ... no.  Out.  Green-bean casserole?  My Aunt Ruth always brings another one anyway.  Out.   Wassail?  Nobody drinks it but me, so I might as well just make it at home after Thanksgiving.  I don't need the drinkable calories anyway, and the way I make it, that stuff is expensive like whoa.  Out.  

That still leaves a lot of cooking to do, a lot of delectable goodness to look forward to, and a lot of dangerous gastronomic territory to tread.  But I'm up for it.  Hell, I do it every year.  

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.  :) 

Mmm, meds! :)

Oct 04, 2007

Just a quickie drive-by post to say, I am losing weight again!  WTH!  

I know why, though .. I finally went to a neurologist about these monster headaches, and he put me on a couple of meds, namely gabapentin and Topamax, and he said one of the side effects would be loss of appetite.  Man, was he ever right.  Zing, right down the drain went my desire to eat.

And then, the very next week, we lost courage.  Courage, I mean, our little rescued chihuahua-miniature Pinscher mix, Courage.  She was hit by a car, and oh man, I missed her so much!  And when something like that happens, your appetite takes another hit.  

And then I got on another med for ADD, Adderall, and it also has an appetite suppressant side effect.  Triple whammy!

My clothes are getting pretty loose.  What a blessing.  Something to smile about, finally.  :)

I'd rather have Courrie, though.   :_(

Motivation

Jul 30, 2007

I just cannot get motivated anymore.  Is motivation like a muscle, and if you don't use it, you lose it?  

Speaking of losing muscle, I have.  All over my body.  I used to be firm in places where I'm kinda just saggy now.  That makes me sad.  I know in a few weeks I could replace all that muscle, but right now it just seems like too much work.  

I know!  I'll blame the heat!  Yeah, it's all the damn sun's fault.  Stupid sun.  Sure, you sustain life and blah blah blah, but you make it too hot to move!

:P  I'll get off my butt one day.  Soon, I hope.


4 years .. 7-16-2003

Jul 16, 2007

Today's my fourth Bandiversary.  

Hmmm.

It's a good time to take stock, so let me do that. ~~~~~~~ Yep, I cannot be bothered.

:D  That's not true, exactly .. but what is true is that I have been completely out of the game for 2 years now.  Two. Years!  since I lost a pound.  What's amazing is that I haven't regained more than I have (I'm not sure how much I've regained .. I'm still in the same clothes, but they're tight where they were almost ready to go in the too-big giveaway).  

When you're a newbie and it's all fresh and new and exciting, your Band and how to work it are always forefront in your mind.  Fast forward a few years, and stuff like work, the new dog, other people's problems etc tend to shoulder their way forward and, if you're like me and cannot walk and chew gum at the same time, the Band and weight loss get pushed back and eventually the pounds creep back on.  Sigh.  

Well, my  new mantra is, "I've lost this weight once, and I can do it again."  Brave words. 

It strikes me that, as a Monday and my Bandiversary, today would be a great time to recommit to doing Fitday, getting in all my water, and walking, so I will do those things today.  The food thing may have to wait until I can go shopping again, so I'll do those things I have control over today.  

Wish me luck!




3-21-2005

Mar 11, 2007

3-21-05 .. holding steady at 217. Well, kind of 217.5 on Saturday. Oh well. Fluctuations are to be expected and, since I got my Depo shot on Tuesday, I'd be surprised if hormones didn't play some role in that. Oh well. I'm doing my part, eating right, exercising, getting in the water. (I got in the mexican food this weekend too, but we won't go there. :D )


3-14-2005

Mar 11, 2007

3-14-05 .. Down another pound to 217. Not complaining! At least the scale is moving in the right direction. 110 lbs altogether, 75 lb since surgery. This is a dream come true. I could NEVER have lost this kind of weight on my own. And it can only get better. :)


3-11-2005

Mar 11, 2007

3-11-05 .. I don't think I have posted about my fill. I think I'm at 2.8 .. and I am tight as the proverbial drum. I got this fill the day after Kelsey's surgery, and I don't think it has loosened at all. The loss was dramatic .. I was in at 229.5 when I got the fill, and almost immediately lost 7 lb. I am 218 now, so that's 11.5 lb in just over a month. Sweeeeeet! But it is tight. So much so that water still sometimes pools in my esophagus. I am suuuuuuuuper restricted in the mornings, which I know is normal. I almost never get anything stuck, which is due to me suffering from soft-food syndrome! Yep, I have a fullblown case of it. My favorite food here lately has been fat free refried beans blended with ro-tel tomatoes (or just mixed and not blended) with Fiesta Ranch dry dip mix and a bit of fat free sour cream and a touch of cheese. Put that with a few Baked Cool Ranch Doritos and you've got a Soft Food Syndrome Feast! :) I'm smiling, but it's not all that funny. I do believe that soft foods are not the devilish enemy as long as you exercise control .. don't overeat, watch the calorie and fat content and make sure you are getting protein. I can and do eat solids too, such as tuna, salmon and soft-cooked chicken, and it works out well as this is the stage Kelsey is on too. I am ambivalent about getting an unfill. I will talk to Dr. Martin about it when we go in on 4-1 for Kelsey's first fill. I DO NOT want the kind of trouble an overtight Band can bring (erosion, slippage) but I do like the restriction, most of the time. I do wish I could eat a tad more sometimes, but restriction is the name of the game. Funnily enough, I am losing at about the same rate as I was pre-tight-fill, so I do need to adjust my eating before the first, so I can have a more educated idea of what's going on in there. I will try some chicken tonight, cooked down with Ro-Tel tomatoes and shredded. Maybe. I do still have some beans in the fridge. ;)


About Me
Piney woods, LA
Location
36.0
BMI
Surgery
07/16/2003
Surgery Date
Aug 09, 2002
Member Since

Before & After
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Thanksgiving 1999, at my highest weight
327lbs
September 2005, at my current weight; down 114 with about 70 lb to go
213lbs

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