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Jul 09, 2013

WTF!  I am so angry with myself.  I have allowed myself to gain 100 pounds from my lowest weight.  I distinctly remember saying hello to ONEDERLAND, and goodbye to the TWO HUNDREDS completely.  Apparently I wasn't / am not committed.  I can't stand the way I look and feel.  I feel like a fat slob.  I am ugly.  I am morbidly obese again.  AGAIN!

I am not ready to recommit either.  How sad is that?  I've gained twenty pounds in 3 months.  INSANITY!  And apparently I am not stopping.  That isn't true.  I need to stop.

My biggest no - no, has been alcohol.  I have been drinking non stop.  NON STOP.  I need to just quit, the initial weight will fall off, but it isn't that easy to just quit.  I am not getting wasted, just drinking because it relaxes me after dealing with work, kids, etc.

Additionally, I separated from my husband of 7 years in January.  That hasn't helped my outlook either.

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