Jenci S.
281
Jul 09, 2013
WTF! I am so angry with myself. I have allowed myself to gain 100 pounds from my lowest weight. I distinctly remember saying hello to ONEDERLAND, and goodbye to the TWO HUNDREDS completely. Apparently I wasn't / am not committed. I can't stand the way I look and feel. I feel like a fat slob. I am ugly. I am morbidly obese again. AGAIN!
I am not ready to recommit either. How sad is that? I've gained twenty pounds in 3 months. INSANITY! And apparently I am not stopping. That isn't true. I need to stop.
My biggest no - no, has been alcohol. I have been drinking non stop. NON STOP. I need to just quit, the initial weight will fall off, but it isn't that easy to just quit. I am not getting wasted, just drinking because it relaxes me after dealing with work, kids, etc.
Additionally, I separated from my husband of 7 years in January. That hasn't helped my outlook either.