Jenci S.
Stall
Apr 14, 2010
Today I like my outfit, but my tank & cardigan are HUGE! But I have had 4 of my co-workers comment on how great I am looking! Today is making up for my crappy Tuesday.
Also, I have to say, I am LOVING our Starbucks right now, I bring them my scoop of chocolate protein in the AM, have them blend it into a Venti Frapp Light, and BAM! 25+ grams of protein, and my yummy Frapp! LOVE IT!
Hope your hump day is going as good as mine...off to eat some tuna!
Eating or Not Eating
Apr 11, 2010
I have been thinking a lot about what goes in my mouth. Hmm...can't imagine why? Maybe because I have had surgery, and my stomach is now non-existent, but also because I know I HAVE to have protein. My first bite at any meal is protein. I am sipping on my Special K Pink Lemonade protein water right now. I think I am a good representative of what a wls patient is.
That being said, I refuse to say "I can never have___ again." People say all the time "What can you eat?" Well, I CAN eat anything, the question they should ask is, what do you eat? I do eat tuna, chili, grilled chicken, cheese, etc. But most nights I have fat free chocolate pudding with a scoop of fat free cool whip on top. It is my decadent dessert, and a fine trade for the 4 scoops of ice cream I used to eat. Today I had THREE bites of wacky cake...THREE! But that is better than the FOUR pieces I would have had before surgery. I can't live my life restricted. I can't NEVER have sweets again. But I CAN have them in moderation, and I truly believe this surgery has helped me discover what moderation means!
For me it means one bite, not twenty, of cake. Since I had those bites of cake, I didn't have any sherbet, no loss there. Today for dinner I ordered a bacon ranch salad from McDonald's, I ate the chicken, with the cheese, bacon, and LITTLE dressing. Before I would have ordered a large two cheese burger combo, and still had ice cream later!
These choices might not seem like much to the general population, but for me, they are life changing, and every time I make a good choice I surprise myself a little.
Every morning I tell my 5 year old to make good choices, and that has now become my own mantra, so in the morning when I tell him to make good choices, he says back, "ok Mommy, you too!"
:)
Apr 09, 2010
I have a friend at work, a male, who I am actually able to talk open and honestly to. Yesterday we were talking and I told him I've lost over 90 pounds since August. He came into my cube this morning and said "I was thinking about you last night, and I cannot believe you've lost 90 pounds! That is insane!" So I showed him some old pictures of me, and he said "That doesn't even look like you!" And he knew me then too!
It was a fantastic way to start a Friday!!!
Current Funk
Apr 07, 2010
Ok Jenci...pull yourself together! You have a husband and two boys to care for! Enough pouting and crying over NOTHING!
You WILL lose the weight in due time, 57.6 pounds down since surgery is nothing to scoff about! Believe it when you tell yourself everyone is different, and everyone will lose at a different pace. You are doing nothing wrong. HANG IN THERE!
You're doing fantastic, and you WILL succeed!
Ok. BREATHE! MOVE ON!
Blah
Apr 07, 2010
P.S. Thank you to everyone for your comments on yesterday's post, I needed those words of encouragement!
Spurred my comments...
Apr 06, 2010
So, I have gained weight. A pound and a half in three days. I told my husband I gained a half pound yesterday, and he said "You gained?!?!?" I pissed me off! But did I say anything? No, I let it go. I have enough issues without him harping on me about my SLIGHT gain! Now I don't even want to eat. And today is a small pouch day, and that isn't helping me to get in enough nutrients. And I can't help but think, "Why didn't you say that when I was at my FATTEST?" Yes, he loved me anyway, and he continues to love me, but HELLO, if there was ever a time to chastize me about weight gain it was 92 pounds ago! WTF! WHATEVER!
So I have decided that since I am scale addicted (yes, I know, I should only weigh once a week), I am only going to post weight loss, if I gain a half pound I am going to ignore it and move on, but if I lose a half pound I am going to celebrate and shout from the roof tops (ok not really, that could be quite dangerous), but you get my point! I can't wait to be a loser again!
Happy Monday!
Apr 05, 2010
I love that I am losing, it is wonderful. But like a lot of people, I don't see the change. I can wear sizes I haven't worn in 10 years, but I just don't see I am that different. Yesterday my grandma said she didn't recognize me, I waved to her out the front door of my office when she and my mom came by to drop off lunch, and when my mom got back in the car she said "Who did you give Jenci's lunch to?" She didn't recognize me! Sadly enough I think that is because of her mind, she isn't 100% there. I don't think she remembers that I had surgery until she sees me, so she isn't expecting to see a smaller me.
Bitter sweet I guess!
Size 18!
Apr 01, 2010
Also, I had ordered some clothes from Lane Bryant, they came, the 18-20 shirts and sweaters are a bit tight, but will work, but the 24 pants are HUGE! WHO KNEW!!! People keep telling me how great I look, but I just don't see it! But between learning last night that my newly ordered clothes won't fit, and this morning being able to wear size 18, I think I am SLOWLY getting it...I AM SHRINKING!!!
Cadbury Mini Eggs
Mar 31, 2010
UGH!
Mar 30, 2010
Got a frozen yogurt with almonds. Ate too fast...and I am not feeling good I was feeling sorry for myself! Aunt Flo is in town, and I have bronchitis! NO FUN!