Jenci S.
Closet Is DONE!
Mar 29, 2010
and yet seems appropriate too!
My closet is cleaned out, it looks fantastic, BUT I HAVE NO CLOTHES LEFT! I am a clothes horse. I love clothes. I am depressed because I had to get rid of clothes! I gave FIFTEEN (15!) bags and THREE (3) boxes of clothes to the Goodwill, and have FOUR (4) more bags of clothes for a friend at work! That should give you some idea of the amount of clothes that used to live in my closet! I should be excited to be able to get rid of all those clothes that are HUGE on me, but I can't help but look in my closet and feel sad at my lack of choices!
Check back with me in a week! I ordered a few things from Lane Bryant, and hopefully that will help!!!
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My closet is cleaned out, it looks fantastic, BUT I HAVE NO CLOTHES LEFT! I am a clothes horse. I love clothes. I am depressed because I had to get rid of clothes! I gave FIFTEEN (15!) bags and THREE (3) boxes of clothes to the Goodwill, and have FOUR (4) more bags of clothes for a friend at work! That should give you some idea of the amount of clothes that used to live in my closet! I should be excited to be able to get rid of all those clothes that are HUGE on me, but I can't help but look in my closet and feel sad at my lack of choices!
Check back with me in a week! I ordered a few things from Lane Bryant, and hopefully that will help!!!
I wore that? And it was tight??? OMG!
Mar 27, 2010
My girlfriend come over today and helped me do my first purge run in my closet! I ended up with 6 garbage bags, and three boxes of clothes to the Goodwill, and three more bags for a friend at work. Cara would hold up pants, or shirts, and I would kind of him and haw over them, and she would just say, "Yeah, this won't fit you, don't even think about keeping it!" I think I needed this purge in order to see how obese I was, and how much I have changed already. I never saw myself as a 32! And I look at those pants and can't believe I once filled them, and even had to sqeeze in at times. My weight loss has been fantastic, but I needed to see those clothes held up, and then bagged, and given away to realize, "HEY! I am actually doing this! And I am succeeding!"
Another good thing today was I saw my youngest brother for the first time since having my surgery, and he said, "You look fantastic!" It was weird, normally I am totally self conscious about my weight, and how much I've lost, thinking people around me can't tell, and think I am a failure. But then out of the blue, the first thing out of my brother's mouth was "You look fantastic!" It melted my heart, and made my day!
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Another good thing today was I saw my youngest brother for the first time since having my surgery, and he said, "You look fantastic!" It was weird, normally I am totally self conscious about my weight, and how much I've lost, thinking people around me can't tell, and think I am a failure. But then out of the blue, the first thing out of my brother's mouth was "You look fantastic!" It melted my heart, and made my day!
Wow!
Mar 26, 2010
I saw my son's grandmother today, she had the surgery last June, and GOOD GOD! SHE IS SKINNY! I mean, TINY, NON_EXISTANT! Insane! She dropped fast! Faster then fast, she lost insane weight, at an insane pace. Me on the other hand, I am going two pounds off, stay, stay, stay, one pound up, then two pounds off. I just keep telling myself, everyone is different, everyone is going to have different results.
And today I am missing food. I want to be able to go home tonight, and eat two grilled hot dogs with a ton of ketchup, scarf down some potato chips, and potato salad. Ahh, carbs and salt! MMMMM! Today at Starbucks I WANTED a Venti Carmel Mocha Frappacino. But I got a Iced tall decaf skinny flavored latte.
Oh well, tomorrow will be better!
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And today I am missing food. I want to be able to go home tonight, and eat two grilled hot dogs with a ton of ketchup, scarf down some potato chips, and potato salad. Ahh, carbs and salt! MMMMM! Today at Starbucks I WANTED a Venti Carmel Mocha Frappacino. But I got a Iced tall decaf skinny flavored latte.
Oh well, tomorrow will be better!
Really me?
Mar 24, 2010
I was reminded this morning that we take pictures at our annual All Staff meeting here at work. So I went hunting, and found some from 2008. I was SHOCKED! They were taken in August 2008, three months after giving birth to my second son. I was 365 when I gave birth, and by August was down to 345...and that is where I stayed. I have seen these pictures before, but they never affected me like they did today, after surgery. I feel SO sorry for that girl...whoever she was...and that girl is NEVER coming back!
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Family Photos
Mar 23, 2010
My boys are 5 and 22 months, so we took them for family photos this weekend. At first I thought I would only have the boys be in the pictures, but then realized, "I have lost weight, I need photographic proof!", so my husband and I joined in. Of course the first thing the girl had me do was kneel down, and I instantly thought, "FANTASTIC, fat Mommy in the middle!", but took the pictures, and moved on. Then when we saw the prints I was amazed! I looked GREAT! So great that I got a 10 x 13 FRAMED print of our family photo, and it is proudly hanging on our wall! I couldn't believe it. It was a good Sunday. :)
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Small Me?
Mar 19, 2010
I have been going through phases where I feel like I am losing, and becoming more comfortable with my ever changing body. Then I step on the scale and WHAM, no loss, and more often than not, a gain! I am losing my drive! How is that freakin possible?
So now here I am, telling myself to HANG IN THERE KID! Just keep swimming, just keep swimming
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So now here I am, telling myself to HANG IN THERE KID! Just keep swimming, just keep swimming
About Me
Sacramento, CA
Location
44.0
BMI
Surgery
01/11/2010
Surgery Date
Dec 22, 2009
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