I am 38 years old and I weight about 270 lbs.  I have not been overweight my whole life.  I was actually a really skinny kid and teenager.  I married young and only gained 12 pounds when I had my first son, Michael.  A few years later my daughter Brooke and only gained about 25 pounds.  Then came my baby - Dylan.  I was having dizzy spells and was told to stay home for the last 4 months of my pregnancy.  I gained 75 pounds.  After he was born, it did not come off and slowly more was added.  

I have actually only been obese for about 15 years.  Isn't that funny the way I said "only".  Anyway I come from a long line of obese people.   I am actually a pretty good "dieter".  I know what to eat and I have studied every diet there is.  I can lose weight but I ALWAYS get discouraged when I stall and I ALWAYS stall.  That added to very active, very involved kids leads to many nights eating out and it's just impossible to stay on track. 

I am actually one of those wierd people that enjoys a good walk or bike ride and put on my ipod and I am happy.  But when I am exercising because I have to or because I remember I ate that cookie and I don't want to ruin my latest diet.  It takes all the fun away.  I become obsessed.  Twenty minutes is not enough - I need to do thirty - then fourty-five.  Then I start to dread it.  It's too much and just can't do it.   I want to take a walk - because it's nice outside.  I want to go for a swim because the water looks refreshing.  I don't want the guilt and the pressure.

I have known for some time that I needed to something.  I really have just been hoping for a magic pill - then my little sister - who is usually the last one to try something new - had the DS surgery.  I did not know anything about it.  All I had ever heard of was the Gastric Bypass and the Lap Band.  I knew those were not right for me so I never really considered Weight Loss Surgery.  Thank god my sister did her research and was so brave.  She may have saved our whole family.  Mom's surgery is scheduled, Dad's is scheduled, I am waiting for Insurance and our oldest sister may still come around.  

I can't wait for the day that I post "just had surgery - everything went great"  

to be continued . . .  

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