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In a month it will be six years since I had my gastic sleeve done.

I am still grateful to this day.  I feel that if I hadn't done my sleeve, I wouldn't have ever had my daughter.  She is a b...

4 years - I am four years post op.  I have maintained 98 pounds lost thanks largely to my sleeve.  I never reached my goal.  I got pregnant before the two year mark with baby number two.  Ha...

Progress not perfection. - I was browsing Youtube and came across a few videos by user Maxxbenson.  I have to say, he is really mellow and his videos were a reality check for me.  He says in one of them that...

January 29, 2014 - Today the scale said 323. Today has been a better day. I ordered a protein shake that was on sale. It's made with pea protein and tastes okay, better than some of the other ...

Thinking about when my losing stopped. - I do regret not posting more details about the losing phase, and more details about what I ate and did back then... more clearly outlining what I was feeling.  But alas that opp...

Thinking. - I am looking back to old posts and wish I had kept more track of what I was feeling and what I was doing. But I did not. What I do know is I was eating a lot less. I wrote a...

Another Day, Another blog post. - So here I am. I am officially three years post op. I feel like a failure sometimes, and it is a desperate feeling. However, I refuse to completely shortchange myself. I have...

Analyzing, Emotional - I've been going through a lot of emotions. I've been going back and looking at my past and analyzing, guided by the book Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel. It's been h...

pity party - I'm feeling moody today. I wonder if I should just throw in the towel, because maybe my journey is done. The scale doesn't budge and I look in the mirror. To me, I don't look lik...

Crack of dawn thoughts - 317 on Friday morning thanks to that time of the month.  Bah!! One of my friends got his personal trainer license recently.   I had a conversation with him a couple of n...

Weigh In - Today, I weigh 315.4.  I've lost a pound since last week and a half inch off my waist this month. According to Monitor Your Weight, I've lost 91 pounds total.  I'm almost at a h...

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Sit ups Bah! - Last night I did 15 minutes on the bike.  I also did 30 situps, 10 squats, 20 modified pushups (the one where your stomach doesn't leave the floor.  I realize I am way too weak ...

Sleeping more. - This morning I got on the scale and weigh 312. Movement, yay! I've been going to bed at ten when possible and I end up waking up between 6am and 7am. So I've been getting bet...

I appreciate this article because it puts the spin of realism to things. ...

This isn't limited to partners. My husband and I, our relationship is...

Exercise: What others are doing, what I'm doing - Today I weigh 316.  Not sure how I feel about that, but at least it's down.  I think I'm still sulking that I gained that all that much weight.  Bah.  I asked my facebook fr...

Angry - Today I am angry.  It is one of those days where I wonder what the hell the point of everything is.  Yes, I'm going to rant and be all dramatic with myself. As of September ...

meh - Today was hectic.  I felt sick, but still had to finish tidying up my home.  I have to pick an outfit for tomorrow, but am not sure what to wear.  I feel ugly.  Not that I ever ...

The Way My Life Was... - I remember feeling very lonely and uncomfortable in my skin at 406 pounds. I would wake up in the morning and eat.  And then choose something to wear based on what I thought...

Self-Assessment: List of Exercises - I looked up a list of ways to exercise for myself.  I am going to write something about each exercise.  I got this idea from a VSG guide... basically to evaluate what I have don...

315! Bah! - I got on a doctor scale yesterday which read me at 315 pounds.  Wah.  I am upset, because I thought I was under 300.  But oh well. This morning I finally put on my Leslie Sa...

August 12, 2013 - I felt really guilty after ordering that 100 dollar bike, but it was discounted from 200. I still have that on my mind though, as I see the sales for school supplies and stuff o...

Turning 32 years old tomorrow. - Woa, I am old.  At least that's what my 17 year old self would have said.  I'm a little sad that I didn't appreciate my 17 year old figure.  Big butt, small chest.. but then aga...

Ordered vitamins and kettle weights. - Today I weigh 299.  Same as always lately.  I shouldn't complain and I shan't.   My pants feel a little looser, and my middle feels a teeny bit smaller.  But I had a mas...