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It has been so long since I have updated this page. I keep meaning to get online and I just don't. My life has been chaotic with soccer responsiblities and my last surgery on October 16th. I had my uterus removed last year in September, but have been having pain ever since.... so I had to have another surgery to see what was going on, turns out I had a LOT of scar tissue and endometriosis which my doctor removed. He informed me that my ovaries were attached to my pelvis walls. Also, my right ovary was attached to a nerve that goes all the way down my leg. I am still having pain on my right side. I am pretty bummed by this. I wish it would all just go away.  I am still so very happy and thankful for this surgery. Other than the "female" pain I feel 200% happier and more confident in myself. I hope to keep this page updated from now on, but I seem to always write that.

Not much new to update really. I have not been losing much weight, but I do notice that my clothes are WAY TO BIG on me. That makes me happy. I tried to put on a pair of shorts I wore last summer and then fell right back off. I had to laugh. I cant wait to see smaller sizes and more weight come off. I started doing some toning excersises for my arms, thighs, butt and stomache in hopes to get that skin firmed up without surgery. I hope it is not too late.  I have been walking at soccer practice and games so I hope the weight loss will start moving faster too. As of yesterday I weighed in at 197 which means I have lost a total of 90 pounds. I was hoping to have lost 100 by now, but I am still happy with the amount I have lost. I feel so much better. I am so much more comfortable doing things and going places now. I dont feel like everyone is staring at me cause I am the fattest person in the room. I know I still have a ways to go (57 pounds) but I am well over half way there and for once in my life I think it is do-able.  It does not seem so overwhelming. 
I have to admit I have had a few glasses of wine in the last month and I think that may be slowing my weight loss a lot. So I plan to not drink anything but water and tea and hope to see the scales get moving again. I definitly want to see 100 pounds gone before my 6 month mark....until later....

This weekend was another soccer filled event. It was very warm on Saturday so I went Saturday Night to buy a pair of shorts. My good friend went with me. We went to Avenue but found no shorts, so we went into Mervyns which is almost next store to Avenue. They had no shorts in Womens sizes so we looked at the shorts in the misses sizes. I was kinda upset the sizes only went up to 16 cause I just knew I would nto fit into a 16. My friend kept telling me just go try them on. I was very upset with her for pushing me to try them on, cause I knew there was no way I was fitting into that size 16. She also told me I had to show her the shorts once I put them on. Well, I very hesitantly went into the dressing room and put those darn shorts on! I mean, no hassle no wiggling, nothing, just went right on. AND, they were comfortable! Not a bit snug! I was happy, I went right to the cashier and bought them. I wanted to get out of the store quick, like I was thinking the fit might change or something.  Then I wore them yesterday and had to keep pulling them up, so I think I could have actually gotten a 14 and still been good! Wow moment for me!

Well, I have not been as good as I had hoped about keeping my profile updated. So much soccer and work lately. It's all good stuff just super busy, I have to remember to stop and breathe!
As of yesterday I weighed in at 190 so that made me pretty happy. I had not lost any weight since last month at the doctor so I was getting kinda nervous. On Sunday I am officially allowed to have beef and pork which means I can eat ANYTHING I want!!! Yippeee!!! Of course it is not a lot of anything but I can at least have anything! (Besides sugar, that will always be a no-no) 
Last weekend we had a soccer tournament in Victorville, CA. I was walking so much, it finally occured to me, I felt really good! I walked all around the park, up and down the stairs to the restroom with everyone that needed to go, and I was ok. I was not out of breath and tired. I sat on the field (on the ground) and was able to get myself back up without feeling like I was making a spectacle of myself! I felt so happy. Everything was much easier. I used to dread all the walking at the tournaments, and now I look forward to everything about them!
I also noticed this last week, when I weighed myself I did not have to push my stomache in or lean way forward to see what the scale actually said. I can see my toes without leaning way over. I looked in the mirror and actually noticed that my belly was smaller! I still dont notice it in my face, but I am happy with what I can notice. Last night at soccer practice one of the moms told me she could see I was getting a curve in my waist! Yipee!! How awesome. I want to have a waist that is small. 
I have to say as each day passes, I am happier and happier, and oh so thankful for this surgery. I have gotten more of my self confidence back. I am able to speak up for myself and not worry that I will be looked upon as "that fat lady". I know I still have a ways to go on my weight loss to hit my goal weight, but I am over half way there. I know I am definitly not skinny yet, but I feel good and that makes me super happy!

This weekend was CRAZY BUSY!!! Ashley had a 3 day soccer tournament and I had volunteered to help out with whatever they needed me for. I worked my butt off, I opened, worked and closed the snack bar, set up, worked and took down a remote snack bar, I helped with team check in and a bunch of other stuff. I think I put in close to 36 hours this weekend! Yikes. My body is sore and I am super tired. I can only say I am so thankful for this surgery, cause I would never have been able to do all I did this weekend if I had not had the surgery! I would love two days off now just to recover, but that won't happen. Next weekend I have to work the Spring Open registration tables from 9-12 and then go to Ashley's tournament in Riverside. I will miss her first game, but be there for the second game. What a busy time of the year soccer season is. I love it but it is sure hectic sometimes.  I finally weighed myself again on Sunday morning and was happy to see the scale at 200! But then this morning I weighed again and was back to 202. I dont understand that. But I know it is still coming off and that is all that matters. I was hoping to be well under 200 by the time I went to see Dr. Suh, but I still have 3 more days so hopefully I will lose those 3 or more pounds. I am going to get some more photo's taken and see if I can see a difference yet. Well, that is all I have time for now, I will update again soon.

So I have decided it has been WAY TOO LONG so I posted here last. I had my surgery on October 18th...was really struggling with what food I could and could not eat. (I am a very picky eater) So now I am at almost 3 months out and SUPER happy. I am half way to my goal weight already! As of yesterday I weighed 201. That is a total loss of 76 pounds. I really wanted to be under 200 by 2007, but I am so happy with what I have lost in such a short amount of time and how much better I feel so it is ok. I am upset with my self that I have not kept this site updated and that I have not taken pictures of myself along the way. I wanted to scrapbook my journey but I have not taken any photos. Now I am going to start getting into more photos. 
The only thing I struggle with now is that I cannot actually look in the mirror and see that I have lost the weight. I see the same person looking back at me. I know I have lost the weight but I just want to see it. I hope if I take more photos I will be able to see the weight come off. I am going to start taking monthly photos. Maybe that will help. I am so thankful for all the friends I have met on this website. They are truly inspiring people who continue to support me even when I dont respond right away. Thank you to my "angel" Cheryl for being such a good friend to me. I hope someday we can meet in person. That is it for now.

Kari...CONGRATULATIONS and Welcome to the Loser Bench...you did it.  YEAH  :o)  I just wanted you to know that you have been in my thoughts and prayers for a safe speedy recovery.  Can't wait to hear from you when you get home. 

Big HUGS to you, from your OH ANGEL...Cheryl

 ~October 12, 2006 ~
Today I have three appointments for preop stuff. My first appointment is at 1pm to preregister for the surgery, then at 2pm with Dr. Suh, and the final appointment for patient education class at 3pm. All appointments went fairly well. While I was at Dr. Suh's office I ran into Angela from the Kaiser class. She looked great and was doing great. She was as happy as could be. I hope to be that happy after the surgery. Then after all the appointments we went picked up Christopher (nephew) and went out for my final dinner at Claim Jumper. I ate a baked potato and garlic cheese toast and had 2 drinks! All big no-no's but I wanted them one last time before I can never have them again. Tomorrow night I am taking my super good friend out to the cheesecake factory for a slice of Godiva chocolate cheesecake, and then I am done. All the bad stuff I wanted before my surgery! The last "hurrah" as some call it! I got my vitamins from Bariatric advantage when we arrived home from dinner. They were sitting at my front when we got home. I opened them up and was a little disappointed. I just cant believe that was all I got for almost $200! Oh yeah and while I was in the patient education class I found out I really did not need most of what I ordered! What a bummer! I am going to call tomorrow and see if I can send part of it back! I hate to waste so much money.

~September 25, 2006~
Oh my gosh what a crazy and hectic day today was at work. I just did not feel like I could keep up. Plus, I got my surgery date today so I was disctracted also. I cant believe I finally got a date. I hope  this time goes by quick but not too quick.  Now I have to get all my protien and vitamins in order. I was so excited to get a date. Something to finally plan for. I wanted to be sure I updated today so I could remember exactly when I got a date. I will update more tommorrow cause I am really exhausted right now.

~September 15, 2006~
Today I got an angel!!! I am so happy. Cheryl Lehman asked to be my angel. Yay!! I did not think I woudl have one. I could'nt have gotten a nicer angel. So far since I met Cherly on OH she has been very nice, helpful and inspiring to me. I am very happy we became friends. Thank you Cheryl for being my angel.