Keeks911
I feel flabby...
Jun 22, 2015
Good things still happening. I am concentrating on my fluids and my proteins but have had great success adding actual foods back into my diet. I am still on "pureed" foods for another week but there are non-pureed foods on my "list", such as eggs and ground beef. I have never tasted eggs as good as what my handsome husband made for me yesterday morning. And my 1oz venison slider with a 1/4c of mashed potatoes. Best and cutiest dinner I have had in a long long time.
I was talking with my mom and my new appreciation for food. Getting to actually eat again, even in a small quantities means so much more to me than it used to. I was telling her that my biggest hurdle will be getting over the portion size. What I was able to eat for dinner tonight, an ounce of meat and a quarter cup of mashed potatoes, completely filled me up. But seeing how small it was, on a small plate and with a small fork, it messed with my mind. I am used to 4-6 oz of meat and a cup of potatoes, along with a salad or something else as well, and finishing it all. I am not complaining, it's a good feeling to eat so little and feel full, but it's hard to wrap my head around. I know it will get easier, and I am trying to change my thoughts on food. Mom suggested a book called "French Women Don't Get Fat", because they think of food differently that Americans, or at least me. I am looking into it, might be interesting reading. (Kindle version for $7.99 on Amazon).
I am down 66lbs, 21 since surgery almost 3 weeks ago. I am assuming that's pretty good. I am back to my workouts and pretty pain free. I am waiting to be off my pain medication (over the counter) as soon as I can be. I am feeling flabby all over and I have only just begun this journey really. I am wondering how much is lost muscle tone from losing so much weight so soon. I am anxious to be able to see my arm work start to define my muscles and see some toning. Same goes for my legs and my walking workouts. I need to incorporate hills, I generally walk a flat route. Inclines kill me!
I look forward to so many things but I need to slow down and take in the mile stones I am passing now. I have been able to wear a top to work every day that I have not been able to fit into for years. I am able to sleep on my side!! I am able to get into my Jeep without pain, bend over without pain and laugh without pain. I am ALMOST into another size of jeans, a size that I didn't think I had and thought I would have to buy to get me through to the next size. But I found 4 pair of jeans in that size in my closet, some still with the tags on them! I am excited to get into them.
This is a journey, a journey that will span the rest of my life. I need to slow down and enjoy working towards all my goals. It's exciting and frustrating at the same time.
I'm happy to be living!
