Keith L.
I am Stil a FAT Guy
Apr 25, 2013
In my head.
Today I worked out with a friend who has just been dying to run me through his routine. I held him off as long as I could so I relented today and went to the gym with him. I didn't want to go because I knew he would try to kill me. Anyway we got to the end of the work out and he wanted me to do burpees. To this point I have avoided any exercise that requires me to touch the floor.
If you don't know what a burpee is, check out this video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CIQx1FiQt50
This where the fat guy in my head comes in. I had such a mental block on doing the burpee I was literally unable to do them. Now granted I had just finished a 2 hour upper body work out and my arm strength was almost non-existent but what I had a problem with was kicking my legs out (from the video I was doing the first ones they showed not the second). I had it in my head that I could not do it, so guess what I COULDN'T. My buddy persisted and I eventually squeaked out 5 of the ugliest looking burpees you can imaging but by the 5th one I was getting my legs out. When I thought about this later I realized that could not get the image of my legs not working properly out of my head when I was doing them. I had some balance issues, just like when I was fat, the reality is that I can balance just fine. I had a fear of falling over (which I almost did several times, but the key word here is almost).
I have a similar fear when I walk through a crowd because when I was lugging around 384lbs I would bump into, well, everyone and have to apologize as I squeeze my fat, sweaty ass past them.
Now that I am well on my way to getting the fat guy on the outside gone, looks like I have some work to do on the fat guy on the inside.
