Takiyah R.

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Stacy T. 19 years, 8 months ago

Hi TAKIYAH, I must say you do look good. Congradulations on your weight loss. My name is Stacy, and I am currently scheduled for surgery 11/01/2004. I must say I am scared out of my mind. My biggest fear is having a complication that results in death. I have a husband and a 4 year daughter that I don't want to leave yet. I have tried several diets and have failed at them, I know I have to do something before my weight kills me. I am 25 years old 5'9 and weight 350lbs. I have been researching the surgery for 2 years, and for the last 2 years I have been up and down on an emotional roller coaster. I have cancelled my surgery date 3 times already, because of my fears. When I read about the postives I be all set to get on the table that day, but as soon as I read about something not so good, I get really really nervous. Needless to say I am driving me and my husband crazy. I know I a very very unhappy with myself, all I do is work, eat, and sleep. My life is passing me by before my eyes. It has gotten so bad that I even think about suicide from time to time, that only thing that is keeping me here is my daughter and my husband. I feel like I am dying inside everyday. If I was not married and did not have my daughter, death would not be a fear for me, because right now my life means nothing to me, but I know I mean alot to my family, and this is the only reason why I am nervous of the complications. I have put my faith and my fears in gods hands, I hope and pray that I make it to my surgery date this time, any words of encourgement would be greatly appreciated. I am trying to find people that I can talk to, to help me through this journey, I hope I have not bored you to much. Again, CONGRADULATIONS on your success, GOD BLESS, and keep doing yo thang GIRL!!!