OT - Need your prayers please

Jun 06, 2011

 

I was majorly disappointed when I learned that my surgery was cancelled for June 18th because my surgeon was away for the month. I was about to lose it if another person told me that maybe this was a "blessing in disguise". Well... to make a long story short it is a blessing as I doubt that my current emotional state could handle any kind of surgery right now.

I am begging you all for your prayers as I wait for my youngest son to be returned to me. My ex-husband took him out of school 11 days ago and I have not seen him since. Although the police and court system are doing all they can, my ex-husband is not giving up and will do all he can to hurt me to the max... which he has succeeded.

Last year when I miscarried and held my unborn baby in my hands, I thought I could never feel any worst.... well..I was wrong because I am at my lowest that I have ever been.

I am fighting the urge to fall back into my old habits of eating for comfort but it is not an easy task. I have managed to hire a personal trainer to work out all my frustrations but even then it is not enough.

I am scared and I do not know how much more I can take. I am in a country with no family and, although my friends and colleagues have been supportive, I just .....ahhhhhhhh..... I can't verbalize what i truly wish for right now.

Thank you for letting me just spill it all out.... from what I have learned from this site is that you are all a great source of comfort and encouragement.

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