Appointments

Feb 05, 2016

So, I just got a call about my Nutrition class and my last follow up with my Surgeon before my Surgery on 3/1/16. Just calling to confirm your appointments, she said.  Am I the only ones who's heart stops when they see the Hospitals name pop up on your caller ID. I just knew something was wrong or that there was going to be a delay. I am stuck in this "waiting for the other shoe to drop" stage and I don't know how to shake myself from it. 


I can count on 1 hand the number of times something has actually worked out for me without complications or drawbacks. Everything I have ever tried to do or have has been a struggle and a fight. I had people sabatoging me, me sabatoging me and life generally just kicking my butt, so when something good is on the Horizon, I panic. I want this more than I have ever wanted anything in my life. I know that if I make it though this, my life is going to change for the better in so many ways. I know I will be successful with this surgery and my life as long as I survive. 

But what if I can't have it? If I do, what if I don't make it? Is it worth it to set myself up for disappointment or possible death?

I'm NOT cancelling anything, I just worry...my brain is racing. 

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