It's getting closer..

Feb 25, 2016

I've noticed that the closer my surgery gets, the more I am here. It's less than a week and my insides are in a panic. I still can't believe I am doing this. It is SO drastic. I am risking my life! The thought of walking into that hospital makes me sick to my stomach. I know it is going to make my life so much easier, and healthier. But I almost want to find an excuse to not have to go thru with it. I am so scared. I worry about needles and tubes down my throat and infections and the pain. Just the thought is making me tear up. How am I supposed to get thru this if the thoughts make me feel like I am going to have a panic attack? 

I know I have to do this and I have no real intention of stopping this process. I am just freaking out. I am in a panic that only gets worse as the day gets closer. It's less than a week away and I don't know what to do. 

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