MiamiMami
Granted I have been here for six years, I have not been an active participant until now. I have decided to try for the surgery again since my initial denial six years ago was devastating and left me hopeless. My weight luckily didn't fluctuate too, too much. I went up one size but that was more than enough for me! I had a daughter and since I was dealing with pregnancy related hypertension, making it high risk coupled with me being age 35 at that time, I watched my diet and lost 30+ pounds in my pregnancy on my own. That was good but being considered morbidly obese, 30 pounds is not nearly enough!
Luckily, I have been healthy aside from having gallstones and having had pancreatitis as a result of having gallstones. I am off the hypertension meds and watch what I eat so I don't have those dreaded gallbladder attacks! They are the WORST! But since hypertension, stroke, AND diabetes run on BOTH sides of my family and in African-Americans in general, I am tired of being at risk and a statistic!
I am tired of feeling tired, run down, too lazy to do anything some days and defensive because someone might just be bold enough to say something offensive or stereotypical in regards to my weight and I might have to be a mean girl, which a lot of ignorant people automatically think of heavier women.
I want to be around for my child. Point, blank, PERIOD! I want to be able to be physically active with her, take her to amusement parks without worrying that I can't fit in a ride, and don't want her to face possible ridicule because she has a very obese mother. I don't let society dictate to me what I should look like because regardless of it all I am a confident adult but children can be cruel! I do know personally some people who have done this for cosmetic reasons. One of them even gained weight to be considered morbidly obese to have the surgery. I don't thin that way because you have to accept yourself the way you are, recognize the reason you need to change and those reasons need to have validity mentally for it to work, IN MY OPINION. If not, you will always find fault in yourself, When you get down to a size six, you'll want to be a four...then maybe a 2...then maybe a zero! Where will it end if you do it for those reasons!?
This is NOT cosmetic for me because beauty comes in many sizes and shapes. This surgery is strictly for me to feel better and live longer! That's the bottom line. If I become even more of a knockout that's a bonus but not at all my main focus! Right now I see myself as fat and fabulous but I want to be feeling fabulous as well!
I will keep everyone up to speed on my progress on my blog here so stay tuned! I welcome all friend's requests, questions, comments and any advice to help me in this journey!
About Me
Before & After
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