MYLIFEJOURNEY
I have been OW since, forever, for real. If I was stressed, happy, upset, name the emotion, and I well...probably couldn't name the food, cause there have been so many....LOL. but really, for the very first time in my life, I have thought about doing something for me. And I actually, DO NOT feel guilty about it. My family has always been supportive of my obesity...never, once did anybody say....Deb. You are ummm...putting on WAY TO MUCH WEIGHT. That was my family growing up, I mean. It's not easy to tell anybody they are gaining weight, well, put it in writing? maybe? So, now...as a grown woman, I have been happily married, to a wonderful hubby, we have 2 children....that are just a Blessing. I want to show them the ropes, along with my husband, in this messed up world, but how could I even begin, really showing them, being the way that I've forever been...trapped, inside this unwanted misery. I will admit, that just recently, was I able to even talk about weight at all. The past year have been a real eye-opener for me. My dreams and aspirations can not be attained, without first...getting myself in order, physically...then of course, the emotions will come. I have noticed since the pre-op diet, exactly and sadly, just how much I am emotionally attached to food....pretty much like an addiction. Yes, there have been times when I lost weight, but like many of you...I am sure. It comes back, double. Then the cycle of unwanted Biggin-ness comes back to haunt you. Every smaller person around me, was just a reminder of how unhappy I was with me. So, here I am....typing my story (trust me) this would take a big book lol..you get a chapter or two...hahaha. My procedure for VSG is tomorrow, October 24th 2011. I am happy. Happy to be able to get a chance to meet the dreamer that can make things happen, can soar like an eagle...and not be stuck on the ground like a penguin. LOL...I can hear my children laughing in the other room...I will be able to laugh with them, have fun, share my dreams.....and not have to worry about how the heck am I gonna get off the floor. rt knee, left knee, roll first...Lmao.
